Christmas brings out the worst in me. Feeling overwhelmed. Under appreciated.

[moanycoo]

I feel so triggered at this time of year and can't quite put my finger on why. I think its to with blended family, feeling under appreciated and sick of being left to pick up the slack (we have 2 teens each, and I do it all)
I had a huge tantrum, said horrid stuff, hate myself even more that I already did.
Next Christmas I am going a solo sun holiday.
F the cretins.

Why do you keep doing everything?

So what happened this year @moanycoo ?

Luckily it was quite a private tantrum, just me and other half. I imagine come next year when he's doing it alone, he might wish he's helped lighten the load a bit

Short answer. Blended with a family I shouldn't have. Only i can do something about that.