I started a new job three weeks ago and and it’s been a huge shock. It’s a very small company (fewer than 10 people), extremely fast-paced, and the culture is really not what I expected. My manager (who is the MD) is quite hostile and I don’t even have a proper desk, they’ve put me in a separate room because they didn’t have space for me, which just makes me feel even more isolated.
Since starting, my mental health has taken a real hit. I’ve cried almost every night, feel constantly anxious, and wake up dreading going in. I’ve had jobs with pressure before, but this is different , it just doesn’t feel right on any level.
I’ve spoken to my family (I live at home, mid 20s) and they’re incredibly supportive of me leaving. I’ve also got a second-round interview lined up next week for another role that feels like a much better fit.
But I can’t shake the feelings of shame, embarrassment, and failure. I feel like I’ve let myself down by getting into this situation. I don't know how to break the news to my manager that I can't continue.
I’m trying to remind myself that no job is worth sacrificing your mental health, but it’s hard not to feel defeated.