I’m so sorry to hear that. My DH dies 15 months ago. It’s absolute pants isn’t it?
Our two children are adults, so I am on my own. They have been really supportive but when they go home, the house is really empty.
It is exhausting dealing with the sadmin and the shock. Do whatever makes you feel comfortable and sod everyone else.
They say it gets better, so let’s hope they are right.