This is a bit personal and awkward but would really appreciate other women's perspective on this and please be totally honest in your response. I am 45 and work in a school. I am single at the moment but have been back doing some dating. Recently i have lost alot of confidence and feel self conscious about being single as everyone at work my age is in couples, married..I have always considered myself to be heterosexual and still do. I have never felt any sexual attraction to other women. Recently I had a feeling of admiration and attraction for one of my female colleagues I work with. I then started to feel so ashamed and uncomfortable with having had these thoughts and have become extremely anxious in her presence incase she knows I had such thoughts or thinks I like her. I have become very nervous and start to blush in her presence which makes things worse and worried that she will think I have a feelings for her. I don't understand a great deal about what I'm experiencing and I'm confused but just feel terrified that she will see my nervousness and blushing as me liking her. I have tried to take the attitude that if worse came to the worse and she thought this it is not the worst thing but I keep thinking if she did think this she would be so uncomfortable and disgusted with the thought of me liking her. That its wrong. She has a husband and family. So it would seem so inappropriate. Would appreciate other perspectives from women who are heterosexual on how they would feel if they thought another female work colleague liked them in this way. How would it affect your attitude to that person. Thanks