Need a hand hold

[Imbluedalale]

That’s just it really. I really need a cuddle but that’s not possible so can anybody just support me right now? My mental health is on the floor right now I’ve never felt as low it’s making me feel so ill

@Imbluedalale horrified to hear the situation you’ve been left in. Like others here am very worried about you and the idea of you saying goodbye. Please come back to this group, we care and you are a wonderful person who can get through this. Hoping you are found and somewhere safe x

Lovely
I hope you found your way to somewhere safe and warm and are being looked after xx

Me too - still praying for you and sending hugs

Imbluedalale, will* *let us know where you are? We're all waiting to hear that you're coping and are safe 😊

@Imbluedalale hoping we will hear from you. Thinking of you and sending hugs

I just wanted to let you all know I’m safe. Feel utterly broken but I’m safe. The police picked me up from the train station. I was waiting for 90 mins for a fast train to come past so I could leap in front of it but turns out I was on the wrong platform for that. I’m sorry that you have all been worried that’s the last thing I wanted but I didn’t even answer the phone to the police and they put a tracker on my phone. The police have been in touch with Doncaster out of hours emergency housing and explained everything and they have got me emergency accommodation for 1 night only at the travel lodge at lakeside so I’m here now. I won’t be able to sleep because I’ve got to go through all this again tomorrow and I really don’t think I can. The tiny bit of strength I gained from the havon has been used to the maximum today. I’m sorry I have only just replied I have been at the police station. I’m shaking like a leaf and can’t stop crying. Thank you for all your kind words. I’m sorry xx

Wow, wow, wow,
I am honestly speechless and lost for words right now.
@TealPoet has booked me into the travel lodge for an extra 3 nights! I have never known kindness like it and all the thank you’s in the world will never be enough for how much I appreciate what this lady has done, thank you so much TealPoet you have touched my heart with your absolute lovely kind , thoughtful gesture xx

I let you share only because I know how many people here want to know that you’re safe and what the situation is going forward :) we’ll have to put our thinking caps on tomorrow and work out how we can move forward.

Happy to help! X

@Imbluedalale glad you can stay an extra few nights. Hope you have been able to have a cuppa and something warm to eat? X

Hi PeggyMitchellsCameo,
Thank you 🙏
I had a cup of tea at the police station not had anything to eat as I didn’t feel upto it xx

I am thinking of you. Only found your thread last night.
Know it’s so tough for you right now but you have lots of people here cheering for you.
What struck me in your posts is what a beautiful writer you are. You are clearly a very kind and loving person and that’s why so many have responded to your words.
You are in my thoughts and prayers and I’m so glad about your room.
Keep posting today to let us know how you are doing.
I know we are all only a bunch of strangers but I think I can speak for everyone - please stay.
Hang on to your spoon.
💗

Thank goodness you are still here and safe @Imbluedalale . Please don’t take your own life, you have so much to offer, and your children would be devastated. Please hold on to that. This will all come right and you will get through it. @TealPoet you are amazing.

So so glad and relieved that you’re safe @Imbluedalale . Please carry on, I know things seem incredibly bleak right now but you WILL have that future with your house, your children and your lovely wooden spoon! We will all be celebrating when you do.

that’s so lovely @TealPoet 💕.

Thank you PeggyMitchellsCameo,
Yesterday just went from bad to worse for me I was on the phone constantly from 9am up until they closed . The council wouldn’t accept recommendations from rethink nor my creative support worker as they are charity led it had to be from a professional. The council just wouldn’t budge at all no matter how many people spoke to them about it , it was that hotel or Bradford . So my mental health team and a doctor wrote an urgent letter to them and emailed it to them to say that sending me there will have a detrimental effect on my mental health and also included in the ‘Domestic abuse Act’ that suitable accommodation must be found . That was not suitable at all. Everybody thought it . Rethink , creative support
, domestic abuse team and mental health team but they would not budge! They deemed it suitable and there argument was that there’s men in other hotels , I know there is but not 97% of men nor the type of men . Even the police were fuming that they’d tried to send me there.
Then the out of hours council number said I should count myself lucky I’ve got a room! That was the final straw for me . I started shouting saying ‘lucky? Lucky?, I’ve got cancer , had to flee DV, my
mental health is on the floor hence being here for 11 days, I’m homeless and I haven't seen my children in 3 weeks and I’m partially paralysed but I’m lucky’ . The havon was having another resident using my room so I have to leave . I just walked out I was so upset and angry . I realised after a while of trying to walk with my crutch and a suitcase wasn’t going to work for me so I sat at a bus stop and stopped a bus and asked if they went to town as station right next to it and they did so I got on. As soon as I got on the bus that’s when I saw the police cars but I just put my head down and they didn’t notice .
I got to the train station and to my luck all the lifts were broken to go down so I tried to carry my suitcase up all the flights of stairs but one man grabbed it for one and another grabbed it for another . I got to the platform and I waited . I was crying and shaking like a leaf . My phone kept ringing and I turned my location services off I was on I really was . All that work I did at the crisis house has been completely ruined by what happened yesterday .
The police found me at the station, it was 2 women and we sat and talked for abit I was sobbing at this point so they asked to take me back to the station . I agreed and they drove me there and we went into a room with sofa chairs in and one made me a cup of tea as was freezing and 4 of them were talking to me at different times . Even the sergeant came to see me . She wanted to go and arrest ex for the DV but I said I didn’t want that , he’s got the children and I don’t want any them to see anything like that. I said to one of the officers that I feel sad and lonely and that I havnt had a cuddle in months and months and she just wrapped her arms around me. It was a proper meaningful cuddle and meant so much at that moment.
The police were saying that if I didn’t accept this room although not ideal they would have to section me because of risk to myself so I was really stuck between a rock and a hard place.
She spoke to the out of hours council and said Laura can’t go to that hotel but the lady kept saying this is all we’ve got but the police said surely because of the circumstances you can do something. She rang back 20 mins later as she had rang travel lodge and even though they were full for the councils rooms they still had availability so they agreed with the council it would just be for one night and try and sort everything else out today . The police brought me here and checked me in and came to my room with me. And I got another cuddle . She told me that they had been looking for me for ages and she couldn’t have home home tonight without finding me . The police were so very lively to me .
So I got here and crumbled to the floor and loud sobbed for a while and then @TealPoet asked me where I was and she booked an extra 3 nights here for me . I still can’t believe the absolute kindness of what she’s done. I can’t believe somebody wanted to do that for me who’s never even met me .
I’m sorry to you all for making you worried , if I had of been on the correct platform I wouldn’t b here right now but when I got to the hotel and read all your messages I had tears streaming down my eyes because in a world where I thought I had nobody and that nobody would care if I wasn’t here anymore you made me see that’s not true. I absolutely sobbed at all the messages.
I’m sorry for everything I put you all through last night xx

Oh and I did reach out to my mum and said I’m homeless and living on the streets with nowhere to go , her reply was ‘awww no’ and didn’t text me after that xx

Hi OP. I am so glad you are ok. I was so worried about you and I am overwhelmed at the depth of caring and generosity of fellow Mumsnetters. I don't even have the words! I hope you can try to decompress a little and find some of that strength from last week. I will continue to follow if you feel up to a new thread, I think many of us want to know you are safe housing asap. A huge hug to you this morning xxx

Oh lovely
Never have I been so pleased to see someone's posts on here!!❤
I'm truly thankful you picked the wrong platform....whatever happens, that's not the answer 😪
Rest today and try not to worry xxx

As for your Mum.....

Words fail me!!

i can’t believe your mum, my heart breaks for you that she won’t give you any kind of help or support. Do you have any other family members? I would just desperately hope anyone in my family would contact me if they felt the way you do and you’re so kind and caring and thoughtful, I feel there must be people out there who would feel the same for you and just not know that you need them to reach out. If not you have all of us behind you of course! I just want you to have maximum support.

Such an awful night for you but I’m so glad you’re safe. So so relieved you were on the wrong platform. Can you get some sleep now? Also the police sound brilliant and that’s so lovely they gave you some big hugs. Sending lots of love and luck to you 💕💕

@Imbluedalale do you know who your MP is? Sometimes they have different contacts and can help. In any event they ought to be made aware of the woeful provision on their patch. I’d be happy to send them a message, share parts of this thread and see if they could help. Please PM me if this would be useful.

Thank you Ruralretreating,
Yesterday has absolutely broken me , I’m back to being how I was before in tears all the time and shaking. I just feel that the council didn’t help me at all yesterday and they made an already hard situation a whole lot worse .
@TealPoet is amazing I’m still in shock that somebody would be that kind to me and do something like that . I’m absolutely amazed. Thank you TealPoet so much xx

Hi RaspberryBeretxx,
Thank you 🙏
Your right things do seem very very bleak at the moment . I’ve honestly got no strength left .
Ive got to wait for the council to ring me to see what they say and I really don’t want to speak to them today.
I cannot see a future anymore the tiny glimmer I have had these last few days has gone.
Apparently when you’re absolutely broken you can still break , that’s what I’ve learned since yesterday.
I am not even going to leave me room today I don’t think I’ll be able to keep myself safe with how I’m feeling xx

Hi nornironlady,
Thank you and I’m very sorry that I made you worried. It was a weird feeling yesterday , I fought and fought all day , spoke to so many different people , got emails sent to council from my medical team and they still wouldn’t budge . Then after I left the house I just went numb and felt numb and knew what I needed to do because my body and mind have no more fight left .
I cannot believe the generosity and the lovely messages and for making me feel loved by everybody on here because that’s the think I was missing the most . Love and care . And you have all shown me that immensely , thank you 🙏 xx

It was incredibly kind of a poster to book you three more nights. What concerns me is that now you’re no longer homeless, but will be on Saturday, when the council offices will be closed.

Are you able to conveniently fail to mention the extra nights to people today and carry on pushing for suitable accommodation. As a pp suggested, contact your MP today xx

Hi Munchyseeds2,
I hope you are ok?
Thank you and thank you for your lovely kind words. I’m laying here now with tears streaming down my face because I felt so utterly unloved and worthless but you’re all going out of your way being so nice to me and being there when I have nobody. It’s touched my heart ❤️ xx