I struggle with Winter. Cold, dark, drab days, hardly any sunshine or daylight, no flowers in the garden, and I struggle to go for walks. (Too cold and dank and wet!)
I find Christmas a bit of a struggle these days too, and I have sadly lost the Christmas spirit, as me and DH have very little family now, (parents died over 15 years ago,) and we have one sibling each who live abroad and we rarely see them. (Not seen them for 8-10 years.) I have half a dozen aunts and cousins who I see 2-4 times a year, and we exchange Christmas cards, but I don't see them between October-ish and February usually.
And our adult DC live 20-25 miles away, and prefer to do their own thing on Christmas day, and see us 2-3 days before. We would like to see them on Christmas day but do respect their decision to just be alone together.
My mother used to make me feel like shit if I didn't go see her 2-3 times a week and ring her most days, and I ALWAYS had to go to hers for Christmas day. DH's mother was more chilled and was happy to just see us Boxing Day.
But yeah, I never want to make my DC feel like my mother made me feel, and I love them to bits and have a great relationship with them, and as I said, I do respect their decision. And tbh I have got used to it just being me and DH now on Christmas day now.