So DP and I had a year long split, never really stopped talking but both slept with others which caused us a lot of misery
Got back together last week
First couple of days he's ecstatic and everything is perfect.
Day 3 we argue because I'm insecure and because I'm struggling to let go of the past.
Day 4 he's talking like I'm just a friend. Says he needs space, that this is too much pressure on him, he no longer feels "cutesy" and feels numb. Says he thinks he's depressed. That he's sick of it being good for an hour then bad for a day.
Day 6 he's acting cutesy again, things are back on track. Talked for hours on the phone, then towards the end he goes cold with me and barely speaks.
And today barely anything. I've asked him what's wrong and he says he's not feeling cutesey or loving and doesn't feel like talking.
I've replied which will no doubt annoy him.
I feel like he's either cheating or wants to. When we got back together he'd been talking to someone on a dating site - he says just out of boredom and she lives in Dubai so it's nothing like that (but she is his type and I am not!)... I feel like me coming back has ruined his happy life cos he was enjoying chatting with friends on the live streams etc but gave it up to be with me.
I'm devastated and don't know what else to do. We'd been together for 4 years before this year split.
Feel like he doesn't want to be with me. He says he does. He's hot and cold. Yesterday he's showing me songs that remind him of me and saying he loves me. Today he's cold and barely speaking
I don't know what to do. Half worried he'll cheat and half worried he'll leave.