Too much food, feel disgusting

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I have hugely over indulged, feel gross. I think my thighs have actually got bigger in the last few days. No self control, just binged on everything despite feeling fat and dumpy. Stomach is huge, jeans are tight. I have two more meals out and plan to be healthy in the new year. I am unreasonable to feel so disappointed in myself that I’ve eaten so much? Does anyone else feel horrid and just wants the festive season to end so that there isn’t so much food and eating out?

Same here! Feel horrible and desperate to get in top of it but so much planned with people all involving food, wish I could just go to a retreat for a few months away from everyone and emerge as a new woman lol. Stupid thing is I don’t even want to go to the social occasions anyway as I feel too fat and horrible to be seen.

I read a comment today that you aren’t what you eat/do between Xmas and new year but between new year and Xmas.

You aren’t alone. It’s very hard when the season revolves around rich food and in such huge quantities.
Your thighs aren’t bigger for a few days of excess eating and well if they are they are.

Start making a really good plan for how the next year is going to look for you. How will you build exercise and healthy eating into your life? How can you enjoy dojng so and get strong and fit and feel good about yourself.

You deserve to have a nice Xmas. Try and get out for a walk tomorrow and look at the bigger picture.

I used to feel this way around Christmas mainly because I used to be very restrictive with food and then at Christmas just go crazy and then regret it! Now I don’t overindulge I just eat a small amount of lots of things that I want to eat and stop with I’m full… but its taken me YEARS to get to that point of intuitive eating. Don’t be hard on yourself it’s only food, you’ll poop it out soon enough and a few weeks won’t affect you long term. I use the new year as a nice healthy start and not worry too much until then xx

My diet has been much less healthy than I want since Christmas day and won't return to normal until 1st. We're away from home so much less control over what I'm eating.
It is frustrating but in the grand scheme if things it's a very short period of time.

Me too. I'm off for 10 days so am aiming to not be too hard on myself and getting on top of it in the new year. I look forward to the indulgence but take it too far!

I really wanted a walk today but had obligations to see family that involved food! I’m seeing friends tomorrow for a meal and I’m out on the weekend for more food! I know it’s only a short period but there’s been chocolate, meals out, social occasions since the start of December and I just want to sweep it all away and have a clean slate to focus on healthy food.

‘My diet has been much less healthy than I want since Christmas day’

That was yesterday! Give yourself a break!

It's understandable OP, but don't wait until 01 January and that whole 'clean slate' mentality.

There's time for fresh air & a walk every day.

Just decide tomorrow you'll get out for even a short walk - get up earlier, walk if practical to your friends, walk afterwards. It's doable.

Alongside that, remind yourself that you are fortunate to have friends & family to spend time with & enjoy a sociable happy time. That's also beneficial to your health!

I overate yesterday, dinner and sweet rubbish.
Today I've had very little actual food, just junky crap.
I'm on the sofa feeling like at any moment, Greenpeace is gonna burst in and try and get me back in the water... Hurling buckets of water over me and damping me down with towels...
It's not like I sit at the table and just pilen it up in front of me, I just graze all day and it vanishes.. have to stop the thoughtless feeding iyswim

I've eaten 12 profiteroles today and feel like a whale. I need to stop

We all sympathise with that feeling of having eaten too much of the wrong things but just look at the negative language you are using about yourself - hugely over indulged, gross, my thighs have actually got bigger, no self control, binged on everything, fat and dumpy, stomach is huge, jeans are tight.
Would you describe a friend in that way? It's a disordered way of thinking to judge yourself by the size of your thighs so maybe, going forward, try to focus on healthier thinking as well as healthier eating

I tend to eat less at non social meals if I've eaten more at others. Or if I've had Christmas cake I wouldn't have my non festive staple of dark chocolate. It all evens out.

I gave up drinking (booze, obviously!) in July and recently, my Dh has decided to restrict himself too. He was working yesterday and today so didn’t drink in the evening. He said people go mad at Christmas then feel disgusting and he doesn’t want to put on the usual weight. He didn’t buy the traditional tin of chocolates either, which has really helped me.

All is not ruined, tho, don’t ruin your meals out, but don’t feel the need to stuff your face. Don’t feel bad, I think over indulging at Christmas is totally normal, New Year, fresh start, think about all the lovely stuff you can have without feeling deprived. When I was on a crazy diet, I loved buying unusual fruit and trying it as a treat.

I ate more chocolate on Christmas Eve and yesterday than I ate during 1/1/23 - 23/12/23. Not an exaggeration.

Also, a family bag of crisps on each day. I wish I were one of these people who could control themselves!

Tbh, I hate feeling 'full'. Feeling overstuffed makes me hot and irritable!

A couple of years ago, I just decided not to do it. Now, I controool what food goes on my plate and it give myself one of everything. If I can manage (and want) anymore than that (which can be a lot at a buffet!), I just take another one.

I found the problem before was I'd take 2 or 3 of something I liked at the start and then felt policed to eat it or just ate it mindlessly.

Sometimes people comment but I'm not bothered. I just hate that feeling so much!

I tend to take the view that if I eat sensibly all year, a few days won't make any difference. Nothing is off limits and for a few days that's absolutely fine. What's left (mainly chocolate!) will replace dessert for the next few months.

I obliged not poiced. Although you sometimes feel policed too!

You can start eating healthier tomorrow. Two planned meals out in 5 days is fine if you’re healthy the rest of the time.

I feel the same & I don’t think I’ve gone that over board thinking about what I’ve eaten but I feel SO full. Might be the fizzy drinks and sprouts 😬

We’ve got one more family ‘do and then home & healthy food! I’ve got an online grocery shop coming next weekend full of veg & fish.

I know it sounds corny, but your weight isn't the actual issue here - the self loathing is the real problem.

You haven't gone from a kind, considerate, hard-working, generally decent human being to a disgusting waste of space in the time it's taken you to eat a roast dinner and a few (dozen) mince pies. You're literally still the same person, with all the same good qualities, and just a bit more food in your belly. This is in no way disastrous.

FWIW I think you're panic bingeing in anticipation of unsustainable deprivation throughout January, which will in turn lead to further bingeing and self loathing when you can't keep it up. It's so counter productive trying to punish yourself through diet/exercise. Your body deserves nourishment, and you deserve to enjoy food, whatever your size. (So rather than "I mustn't eat chips, I must eat salad" try and think "I'm looking forward to some chips later. So right now I'll have an apple and a satsuma to make sure my body gets all the nutrition it needs throughout the day" etc).

A calmer, more positive relationship with food is the only way to tackle the binge/purge cycle xxx

Same and for now I can blame my parents for force feeding me, but I will be leaving tomorrow but still on holiday for a while so will have to confront my own responsibility.

I recommend this awful virus/covid.
I’ve got a house full of food that was meant to be binged on - even DS2 doesn’t like the taste of chocolate right now 😱

It's not really fine to feel miserably stuffed with indigestion or constipation though and it can take people many months to lose the Christmas weight. A bit of a feast is fine eg a large Xmas dinner, but all the cakes and chocolates for the whole period is just bleh...

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