Aibu to just want it to be so special. 38 weeks.

[Justanightmaretobearound]

I’m 38 weeks pregnant with a much longed for baby, I’ve waited 6 years!

I feel so ungrateful and rubbish as the day I announced my sister announced too, she’s 2 weeks behind but due to circumstances we found out we’d both be induced on the same day.

I don’t know why but since finding this out I feel so sad and tearful. I can’t even rationalize what it is that upsets me so I guess I probably am unreasonable.

I can’t stop cleaning the house, morning and night full on scrubbing the bathrooms, floors, polishing. I can’t relax at all.

I said to my DH tonight I’m struggling and he said he’s not dealing with this and has gone to bed. I just wanted to talk to someone.

I am so obsessed with this perfect experience of having a new baby that I can’t relax or let anything slip in fear of it being less than perfectly special.

They were born 24 hours apart and 2 boys!

Do either share a birthday with their cousin?

@Justanightmaretobearound congratulations. You have a wonderful Chrismas miracle.

O love, i dont think its unreasonable to feel this way. Your hormones are all over the place and youre probably anxious about it (hence the perfectionism).

With your sister - there will probably always be some temptation to compare yourselves, but try and see the positive. Shes going to be going through the same experiences as you at the same time, so you can really support each other. Once the babies are old enough to play together it will be so nice for them and you too.

With nesting - I've been there. A highlight for me was cleaning the detergent drawer in the washing machine before i washed my precious newborns clothes in it at 3am because i couldnt sleep. It happens, you'll stop when the babys here.

I would speak to your midwife about how you're feeling mentally. Theres lots of support within the antenatal centres but also generally for new mums, but you do need to ask for it. Good luck xxx

Brilliant ! Different birthdays.

I hope you have a lovely Christmas and don't over do it ! You have had an operation !!! and you have a new born :)

Ah just seen you've had them. Congrats!

You didn't jinx it. Childbirth will go the way it goes. Congratulations 🎊

Incredible! Take care of yourself, the first few weeks are a shock to the system especially if you have a savage case of the baby blues like I had.
Congratulations to you both on your little Christmas blessings.

Congratulations! Xxx

Ah that’s wonderful news. Congratulations to you both and hope you all have a lovely Christmas with these precious little arrivals 💙💙🎄🎄🌟🌟

Congratulations !!