I’m in my 40’s now. Have an older brother ( 2 years older).
As a kid, I used to look up to him. He was a real life and soul of the party type.
however, he was often very cruel and nasty to me. We often had the usual sibling squabbles, but he remained violent towards me well into my teens. ( I was still being beaten up by him at 16). I had to go to friend’s houses after school and wait until my parents came home. I didn’t feel safe being at home as he’d always start a fight.
in the intervening years, I tried so hard to build a relationship with him. At times, we got on but he has a very volatile temper. We’ve both moved away from home, and only really see each other at family gatherings. Sometimes we get on, but often he’ll undermine me and make snarky comments about me in front of our wider family.
I’ve long given up having a close- or even cordial- relationship with him, but I’m sick of the constant sniping.
I have never done anything to provoke this hatred.
I feel so cheated by this. Lots of friends have really close relationships with their siblings. I just feel really sad that this will never happen.
has anyone else been in a similar situation? How did you deal with it?