I have had a lifelong struggle with my weight.
I am on the lower end of obese (short) bmi.
at my highest I was a size 18-20 I have over the years at a time managed to get to a size 10 and have then struggled in between ever since.
I cannot get a handle on it. Every few years I find a diet that really suits, think I’ve finally found the answer and live a healthy lifestyle only to find another couple years down the line I’m back to binging and struggling.
im coming up to mid 30s with two children and I just cannot go on any longer. I put on weight rapidly and always wondered why I struggle so much.
I realised recently that I at the heart of it have a very very real issue with food intake. I spent a week with some work colleagues in a property and realised I am so different to average people in regards to food. I think about food from the minute I wake up to the minute I go to bed. It’s insane. I genuinely thought everyone was the same 😳
I’ve had enough. I am fundemtally broken and I am SICK of struggling with my weight.
im considering getting some kind of permanent weight loss surgery so that I just simply cannot take In that amount of food.
I don’t want to live like this anymore.
if I’m not on a diet I’m piling on lbs and feeling shite about myself- and still thinking endlessly about food. If I’m on a diet it’s a mental game and again, I’m endlessly thinking about food. It’s a constant struggle regardless.
I want to get on with my life and no longer have my weight affecting me and while I know I’ll STILL always be thinking of food as I’m sure the wl surgery will require it’s own mental workload, atleast I’ll be fucking slim for the rest of my life.
DH doesn’t support. Says if I died having surgery it’s a waste of my life and the impact on our family huge. He calls it vanity surgery.
Best friend says surgery is for morbidly obese, not for someone with 3/4st to lose.
Im miserable. I just want to be able to get on with my life.