Ok. I think I’ve made a massive error in my life.
Was with my ex for 8 months. He basically did a lot of things over that time that annoyed me and right at the end of the relationship his behaviour was absolutely abysmal.
We broke up.
About 2 months after breaking up, a guy who knew my ex started speaking to me on FB.
There was ridiculous flirting right from the off set, even exchanging photos and videos etc (bad choice I know).
Anyway, we met up twice. The first time we kissed and the second time we had sex. It was easily the worst sex of my life. It was like he was all talk but couldn’t perform at all.
Anyway, I completely go off the guy because of the sex and because I’m pretty sure he actually has a girlfriend (he added me on Instagram after the sex and I did some snooping when he left and if they’re not together now, they definitely were when we were really flirting) so I ghosted him basically and just scratched it up to a lesson learnt.
My ex then gets back in contact with me. I realise I miss him and we get back together basically a week after I had sex with the other guy.
Do I tell my boyfriend I had sex with the guy he kind of knows? They both have some of the same friends and I can’t help but think these guys will talk and it’ll come out and my boyfriend will be ambushed with the information.
Also, I’m completely aware I’ve made some absolutely terrible decisions and hurting my ex wasn’t on my agenda. I do want to tell him but is that only to absolve myself of guilt? Will hurting him to make myself feel less guilty be the best thing or should I keep quiet? I think he’s knows I’ve slept with someone else when we were apart and I don’t know if he has and I don’t want to know if he has.
I think I really want a serious future with my boyfriend and I think I’ve seriously f’d it up.
(also, protection was used and I’ll be tested just to be sure)