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AIBU?

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He said he wished I'd die

89 replies

LovesaHoliday · 17/03/2023 18:51

My DH and I have been having a rough time recently and a couple of weeks ago he told me he wished I would die. I was obviously very shocked at this and left the room and when we discussed it the next day he said it was the panic that if I left and tried to take his money or our DC that he would rather that I was dead. He did say he felt guilty for saying it and that he wanted to jump in front of a train so I calmed the situation down but I said we had a lot to work on if we wanted to stay together. Since then he's been really antagonist and pulling me up on my faults, saying I'm selfish and having lots of little digs. AIBU to think that he should be making an effort to actually fix things rather than trying to make things worse?

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LovesaHoliday · 17/03/2023 21:40

It's so hard to read all these comments and associate them with my DH even though I'm living it. In general he's a nice guy, a great dad and we're happy day to day but he does have a temper and can get quite angry when provoked. I've probably posted on here a couple of times over the years when we've had an incident (such as him throwing a chair, smashing a mug etc) but this time has really tipped me over the edge and I can't get over this and you're all right that I shouldn't have to.

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clementyne · 17/03/2023 21:43

Friend, I'm sat upstairs alone on mumsnet on a friday night because I live with someone who shouts abuse at me. It is no way to live!

LexMitior · 17/03/2023 22:04

God if he throws things and smashes objects you are in deep. This is violent behaviour. A good man does not do this. It is frightening and you should not ignore that common sense feeling that it is.

vipersnest1 · 17/03/2023 22:17

He's not a 'nice guy' - he's wished you dead and thrown things in anger.
He's not a 'great dad' because he treats the mother of his children with contempt at times.
@LovesaHoliday, you really need to wake up here - you're currently satisfied with the crumbs from his plate when you deserve so much more.
How much further will you let it go? Serious question because it's only going to get worse. Sad

StripeyDeckchair · 17/03/2023 22:28

Hes checked out but is trying to make you actually end the relationship so everything will be your fault not his.

Bet He won't go to counselling

Justmeandthedog1 · 17/03/2023 22:31

Bloody hell, it gets worse, he throws furniture, now wishes you dead and puts “his” money before his children. Why are you still with him?
Any charm he has is a front — that’s the real him you are seeing.
Contact Womens Aid for advice and start planning to leave but do NOT let him get any inkling of your plans.

iwontforgetyoumyfriendwhathappened · 17/03/2023 22:36

clementyne · 17/03/2023 21:43

Friend, I'm sat upstairs alone on mumsnet on a friday night because I live with someone who shouts abuse at me. It is no way to live!

Sorry to see you are also having to walk on eggshells around someone who is meant to be a "partner". I hope you are able to take advice from this thread as well.
Both you and OP deserve so much better than you're allowing. Your value is so much higher than you realise.

LovesaHoliday · 17/03/2023 22:38

@clementyne I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this aswell, I really hope you'll be OK and make the right choice for your own well being. This thread had proved really eye opening and I hope it's been useful for you to.

@StripeyDeckchair You're right, he won't go for counselling, or to the doctors to help with his mental health. I've mentioned it a number of times over the years and he says he has control and his own management strategies so he doesn't need anything else.

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Pinkbonbon · 18/03/2023 12:45

And its true, he does have control. Because the secret is, he doesn't throw furniture around because he's lost control in a fit of rage. He throws it around as a deliberate intimidation tactic. To 'win' the argument and maintain his control over you.

And his mask slips when you talk to him about it. Hes incapable of normal, empathetic reactions.
When he told you he 'only' said the ting about killing you because... the 'reasons' he gave were selfish too.

The things he says after his outbursts are just as telling as to who he really is.

Someone who wasn't CHOOSING to throw furniture or wish you dead, would be appalled at their behaviour. Would move out rather than put you and the kid at risk. And seek therapy themselves.

This guy isn't mentally ill op. This behaviour is just who.he.is. And he's fine with it. And that's fucking scary.

You'd be wise to maybe see about therapy yourself at some point. See if you can unpic how he has got you to stay so long, putting up with this shit. Maybe you have abuse in your past thats contributed. Maybe your self esteem just needs work after he's chipped it away over so many years.

But either way, get away from him.
Before you become a statistic.

Sandra1984 · 18/03/2023 12:49

Thedogscollar · 17/03/2023 19:00

I wouldn't want to fix anything with a person that wished me dead.

This with bells. There’s nothing to fix here. He wants you dead, so before he actually attempts to do it you should get your ducks in a row and get out. Write an email to friends and family letting them know that your partner has told you he wants you dead, so if an “accident happens” to you they can give it as evidence to the police.

emmylousings · 18/03/2023 13:01

cupofteaandabiccyplease · 17/03/2023 19:06

My ex was like this, i offered to escort him to the railway station, He was such a knob, I left him and no, he didn't do anything. He found another mug three weeks later to sponge off.

That made me laugh. I'm not making light of suicide, but yeah this is typical from abusers and manipulators. I had an abusive ex who threatened to kill himself, I said crack on. He didn't. People who are serious about suicide, sadly, don't share their intentions.
OP, his comments about money and your DC are very revealing. Time to move on I think.

vinividivinci · 19/03/2023 08:54

I have had people scream at me that they hate me and wish I was dead. Often, they are in a highly emotional state, and on each occasion, the individual also was either an adolescent or had mental health difficulties. Once they had calmed down, they were contrite. I knew they did not mean what they said, and we just moved on.

However, this seems different. Your husband has said he would prefer you to die than to take his money and the children. That can easily be interpreted as an indirect way of saying 'If you try to take the money or the children, I will make sure you die'. This isn't someone losing control and saying something they would never usually say. This is a threat. You need to get out and get out quickly.

Naunet · 19/03/2023 09:32

Well let’s be honest, he wouldn’t be the first man to murder a woman so that he didn’t have to share “his” money. Proceed with caution OP, personally I think you need to leave ASAP.

WotsitsMadeIn1927 · 27/03/2023 22:29

I’ve said YABU. YABU to have stayed with such a horrible pig. I wouldn’t try to work on anything If he wished me dead and then proceeded to nit pick every fault I had rather than fix his own pig headed self.

you deserve better

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