Personality disorder???

[Aljb02]

After several stints of therapy and drs appointments over many years in being referred to the mental health team for an assessment for personality disorder.

im scared
who am I?

AIBU to question my whole life????

I'm sorry, I know you must feel scared!

Have they indicated which type of PD they are assessing for?

Bear in mind that any personality disorder diagnosis is quite subjective, especially EUPD. If you don't really meet the "criteria" strongly I would be prepared to challenge it, since PD diagnosis could mean you have chaolenges accessing certain treatments and therapies.

Also, if it helps - think of it like a spectrum. All our personalities are 'disordered' to some extent. Don't let it feel like a label which defines you.

hiw do I find out who i am?

ive never felt “Normal”.

I just float about in this world not knowing who I am.

wnsts my purpose? Am I meant tk have a purpose?

I have been there. Therapy will help you find you, and find a purpose.
Getting a PD diagnosis does not mean you do not have a personality, or that you are doomed to float about in this world.

I’m sorry you’re feeling scared OP, mental health can be very tricky but hopefully a diagnosis will result in effective treatment 💐