@bloodywhitecat So lovely to see you but so sorry to see you back! I remember last year, and what an absolute terrible time for you, and then I remember, it’s never “last year,” is it? It becomes this year, and the one we loved is still gone. I hope you’ve found some small simple pleasures in the mean time; I hope you’ve still seen some flowers bloom, and at this time of year, some leaves change color. You’re so very brave, even if you just get up in the morning and put your pants on one leg at a time… or both at once, for a surprise of a morning!!!!
@Geppili and @Clevererthanyou Thank you for the recommends! I’ve actually been on sertraline since I got my diagnosis in December but in this case, what’s causing the problem is steroids. Every time they suddenly give me a huge, crashing dosage with no taper upwards, I develop steroidal dementia - I cry when I wake up, I cry when I drink my tea, I cry all day long; I think everyone who loves me actually hates me, I think I’m worthless and a burden; it’s the only time I’ve EVER been really dangerously suicidal, and then I also worry that asking for help will make people hate me. My therapist now has me on some anti anxiety drugs until they can drop the steroid enough but I NEED the steroid because I have no bloody adrenal glands so I can’t just not take it which would be a LOT better. God, what a fix. So, are they psychotropic? Well, I would definitely warn all of Mumsnet that no one classifies drugs like prednisone (and oral hydrocortisone, or hydrocortone, hydrocortisolone) as psychoactive, but they are capable of causing HUGE changes to your mental health (depression, anxiety, mood swings, so far beyond the norm), and to be on the lookout.
And @Geppili congrats on success cake?
@caroleanboneparte I don’t know if it’s that bizarre after midnight, but we had to put the cutoff somewhere, you know? I mean, I think the first night I made the thread, I would have been putting, “You, hey you, wotcher, what you doing up past 1:32?” But it just doesn’t have the same right as “past midnight.” If we get a next thread, I’ll call it that.
@lljkk Always a pain when the brain doesn’t want the sleep anymore and you’re trying to tell it to do what it should.
@Blocked So glad to hear your je in your happy place!
@KingaBee and @Minniem2020 5 month old and 6 month old! Bless you both! At least Frozen Planet is a nice one to watch. How they get those shots of the animals! Just amazing.