To ask what you’re doing up past midnight?

[5YearsLeft]

My meds are absolutely destroying me. It’s just… nothing left. And a friend told me that I haven’t been a good enough friend during this and I just… cannot comprehend. So I’m listening to this on replay:

Hope you other insomniacs are okay.

My baby had a dreadful cough and was up and upset between 12-3. Felt so sorry for her and couldn’t sleep after as was so worried!

@tiddlywinks2 Not a fucking wink. BUT I didn’t kill myself, so one out of two ain’t bad. You can’t win them all. Sometimes we just have to celebrate surviving, and we survived. And it’s another ruddy Monday.

Sending hugs to you, it's absolutely horrendous. Hope your Monday isn't too busy.

Do you take any sleeping tablets? I'm debating on whether to go to my doctors.

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To cheer everyone up, I successfully made my red velvet today. Icing tomorrow. I had to make three tiny ones for crumbling over the icing. I slit one in half to check the crumb texture. I was so proud of the bake, I made a quick sponge installation to photograph for my husband and you guys.

Trigger warning. It is graphic.

I call it Sponge Venus (or Lady in Red).

Sponge venus

@Geppili I cannot even tell you how much needed to see that. There aren’t words. I tried to email my neurology consultant for help only to discover she’s gone from 16 to 30 Oct, so I thought I better just get it over with because it really is an A&E situation and only her good will keeps me out of A&E usually, except the wait at A&E was SIX TO EIGHT HOURS. On an ACTUAL scoreboard. I turned around, gave up and went home, and cried when I gave the taxi driver my home address so he couldn’t understand me.

But if I’d had one of those red velvet fairy cakes, maybe it all would have turned out so differently (this is what they mean when they say don’t give up more than you’re prepared to lose to weirdos online - boo! hiss! The fairy cake shall be MINE!)

But really, don’t give your fairy cakes to random weirdos. That’s how you end up with:

• best friends
• social obligations
• engaged
• RACCOONS

(And to all others, really sorry for dragging down the thread - I never thought the blue MN warning would be for me, but just proof that we don’t always get to control our medications and the effects they have on us, as humiliating as it is, and we’re probably lucky MN cares).

@5YearsLeft so sorry for what you are going through. The NHS is so desperate now. I am really proud and pleased my sponge installation cheered you!

I'm on venlafaxine. I hate it, but it has helped keep me stable. Are your meds psychotropic?

I second what @Geppili says, it took me 3 tries on different meds but the Venlafaxine changed my life, I feel much calmer now. I wish you peace and a decent kip Op.

Worrying

Breast feeding my 10 day old baby... Since 6:30pm!!
She has only just decided she has had enough and fallen asleep. Someone please tell me this cluster feeding eventually stops, my nipples hate me right now 😭

Really sorry you lost your dh. I did too and have found Amitriptyline good to help with sleep and mood. I actually woke up as I forgot to take it. Might be to do with having the flu and covid jabs today too

It does stop. Unfortunately I can't remember when as mine are teenagers.

Pumping

I’m up, 6 months pregnant with horrendous hip pain that is never ending, but feels worse in the night when I’m all alone.

Had covid recently. Been negative since last Monday but today found myself short of breath. Come 5pm I was really struggling and not improved by 8pm so rang Out of Hours dr who advised ambulance rather than DH driving me in. ( not England for those who find the timings too quick)
The ambulance arrived about 40mins later and were ok for me to stay home Altho they said I could go in if I wanted. DH then drove 15 miles to Out of Hours for strong anti bios as I have a crackly lung and a chest infection and I am propped up in spare bed sounding like a steam engine and now wide awake.
I normally have trouble staying asleep all night but this is hard.

I am awake because this week I have to get on a plane.
I had a huge fear of flying, got over it and flew long haul alone.
It's 6 years since.
I just don't want to panic. Because it's horrible. But also because I just don't need to!

TTC #2 and coming off my meds slowly which has cocked up my insomnia.

I need to pray and clean my flat as my mum is coming tomorrow and its a state.

I've set an alarm for 4 30am but ended waking at 2am

Now i want a nice hot tea.

I will feel fucked tomorrow 😪

I’ve had an horrendous few days/nights at work. I haven’t long got home after 4 long days and nights. Trying to wind down to get some sleep now

An annoying 6 week old grunting away and and even more annoying 3 year old incessantly coughing for over two hours. Urgh

Sending prayers and hugs.

i’m worrying and googling about DS medical condition and feel sad for him.

I fell asleep to early.
Also I knocked my CP mask off my face so that woke me up.

Now I'm petting my 🐱