As an NHS nurse I thank you all for your thoughts on our strike action. I was talking to a colleague about it yesterday, and she was saying it makes her feel physically sick. I am not sure where I stand yet, of course we will ensure no harm comes to patients however, every day harm is happening.
The condition in the NHS are dreadful for staff and patients. Strike action is an absolute last resort and honestly it's not really about the money, you have to want to do the job and most of us love it but, we are so understaffed it's making us physically and mentally ill. We cannot retain staff and we go home daily, fearing we will loose our pin number and about the patients we couldn't help.
I could and do cry about what I have seen and done because I am letting my patients down, end of life patients waiting for care because a septic patient will die without me and I cannot do everything.
The NHS is abused I could tell you many stories, patients are waiting longer for procedures, some are dying while they wait, some are so sick by the time they come in we have to really fight to save them and they stay in hospital for longer.
We are trying to do everything with literally nothing. The only way I get through is to shut myself down to do my job, I felt guilty yesterday as I sat with a dying man for 5 whole minutes all the while I had 100 other things I needed to do.
We get abuse physically and verbally daily, that includes management who are stressed. I am quite tough so I don't always take it personally but the new/younger staff do and it breaks them.
This is not the job I want, I always take the patients 'home' with me, those I have let down but, they are not the ones whose lives we save, it's the small things, time with dying patients and their family, talking to a lonely elderly person about their amazing life, or with someone who has been given bad news. I could weep for these people. They keep me up at night, but if I give up who will step in? We have record vacancies. My family take the brunt of my feelings of failure, and my days off are spent exhausted.
Any suggestions for how we get the Tories to listen without strike action would make alot of nurses very happy. This is an attempt to save the NHS it's much more complex than money.