I had my first baby a year ago. He's lovely but was and continues to be quite "high needs". He had reflux and has an intolerance to cows milk so we had a few really difficult weeks initially. He doesn't sleep well at all and I'm up with him throughout the night. We cosleep but he still wakes frequently.
I am knackered all the time and eating crap for energy. I'm also the main earner and am just getting back to work, I'll be doing 4 days. When I'm home alone with my little boy, it's very difficult to get even basics done. Even when he's in the same room he often wants to be picked up and is teething at the moment so is quite unhappy.
I wasn't my ideal weight before pregnancy but I've gone from a size 14 to a 16-18. I have a huge stomach and a c-section overhang. I rarely get to put on makeup or do my hair. I live in leggings and dresses as all my fitted clothes are too small or look awful with my stomach.
A few weeks ago I tried cutting calories to lose weight at a steady pace but I lost less than 1lb per week so I got fed up and thought fuck this! I was definitely counting properly and had used a TDEE calculator to figure out how much I should eat. I know it won't happen overnight but it just feels like at my size it shouldn't be so slow?!
As part of my job role I am also doing a postgraduate qualification which involves travelling 6 hours a day to and from university. The course is in the induction phase at the moment so I am there 2x a week, but this will reduce to 1x fortnightly soon. I am also struggling with leaving my son for so long on these days and am feeling quite down generally about having to return to work. I suppose this plays a part in my motivation.
Partner is helpful but during the night it is often only me that can settle baby (are they still considered a baby at 1?)
I see other mums who look fabulous and here I am looking like absolute shite.
Anyone else?!