Secret confessions thread

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Okay, so, we all have these thoughts; things we know we DEFINITELY are being unreasonable about and yet we can't help but think them.

This is that thread. A chance to say whatever you want judgement free. You know it's silly, you know it makes no sense but it's how you feel. Feel free to share! It might make me feel a little less crazy.

I'll go first...

My best friend gave birth to twins today and I am INSANELY jealous. Simply because I want twins. I know it's stupid, I know I likely won't even have twins but I want them so badly and now she has them. I feel like she's stolen the twin dust and there will be none left for me!

Like I said - just somewhere to post how you're feeling consequence free

Sorry he'd cheated

I despise my stepson. I don't even know why as he's not that awful in reality, but his mum is a cunt and my in laws treat him like he's some sort of god because he's the only grandchild from a 'broken family'. They have no interest in my kids, never ask about them but my kids dote on them. It makes me sad.

I once told an ex boyfriend I had forgotten about a report so I could go to work and fuck my boss. I then went home and he wanted to have sex. I didn't want to but he was a pushy twat so I had sex with him. My then boyfriend was a nasty piece of shit. I felt dirty but I didn't feel guilty. The world is lucky that he's infertile.

Sometimes I wish my husband would leave me so I don't have to put up with his family anymore. His brother is a sap who is married to a silly cow who told me I shouldn't have more children as my DC1 was in a jealous stage. Id just had my second miscarriage. I wanted to punch her but she was pregnant. I have an irrational level of dislike for her.

@LadyMil

You sound like someone with dogs that I might actually like! Problem is, all those I know with furry smelly hairy moulting excited indulged dogs expect me to think their dogs are fabulous.

I don't think they are fabulous at all, same for kids. So I avoid anything to do with either, and I meet friends at night when kids are in bed and dogs are not allowed on the premises.

I've abandoned visiting people in their homes if they have either dogs or kids or both and fuss over them in my presence. Nope not a chance.

I once went out to dinner at my husband's very old friend and his wife's house. We were to stay over in their spare room. The friend's wife was worn out from a day at work and cooking a big dinner with loads of wine. She went to bed at about 11pm. Then my DH fell asleep on the sofa so I told him to go to bed. With them both asleep, I snuggled up to the friend, unzipped him and gave him a bj. Then we had good sex on the floor. Breakfast the next morning was a funny atmosphere and nothing has been said about it since - I still fancy the friend and would do it again given the opportunity but I think he is scared of me now and avoids being on his own with me.

Until I managed to have my own children after a long struggle, I used to hold friends' children and pretend in my head that they were really mine. I used to buy them outfits and toys I wanted them to have and imagine what they'd become. I am still a very involved 'auntie' now, but I don't feel like they are mine now. At my lowest point, I had to run into the toilet on a night out (no one else noticed) when my pregnant and blase friend, drank spirits and smoked on a night out. 😩

Don't want to get divorced. I like my life. I never worry that my husband will find out, it's very well hidden.
We don't want to leave our partners to be together bur we've been together so long that I can't imagine not having a husband and a boyfriend. I actually feel sorry for people who don't! They both have their roles and I don't feel guilty.
I honestly think my husbands affair- with someone 15 years younger- was far far worse. Hard to articulate why but I feel like my affair is respectful, its real feelings, and it doesn't want to destroy my marriage.

PS - I still see the friend, but I think she is an unfit mother.

This did happen to someone I knew. It was incredible, she got over a million.

I fantasise every night before drifting off to sleep. Sometimes, it's about meeting a celebrity crush and discovering a mutual attraction, other times I'm a best selling author who is getting a call from Martin Scorsese to turn my book into a movie 😅

@capedavenger there was a thread this week where the op had two disabled children. Dc1 severe and non verbal and dc2 life limiting illness. She was pregnant with dc3 and one of the reasons pro having baby was they would look after the older siblings. She didn't get pregnant for that reason but this was one of the reasons she wouldn't terminate
Like wtf ! Once twice three times a charm??
That poor poor baby if she does continue doesn't deserve to be brought into the world with caring responsibilities. It reminded me of 'her sisters keeper'
Her dh didn't know yet but I hope he stands up for the baby and says no, if we die they have care arrangements in place.

@LadyMil see that sounds reasonable. I once got ostracised on a Whatsapp group by a “friend” because I was organising a party and wouldn’t allow someone else to bring their dog (I’m allergic and don’t want to be sneezing for weeks after they’ve gone!!!!). I’m now too scared to invite any of that group round in case dog-gate repeats itself.

Come over, I’ll pop my dogs in the spare room lol

I know what you mean. I love my dogs but I fully understand that not everyone does, not even my friends or family. So when they visit my dogs go in the spare room.

You shouldn’t have to pretend.

I have NEVER missed my kids when they used to go to their dad or he took them on holiday. I couldn’t wait for them to go. I go away for a long child free weekend every year and have done for 11 years, (I’m a single parent) I don’t communicate with home at all when I’m away unless it’s a proper emergency. I’ve still got 2 out of 4 living at home. I can’t wait for them to be gone so I can get my life back! 😂😂😂. I love them all so much but I’m done!

Oh I have one more that is worse than my dinner party late night shag on the floor.
I lived in a shared house when I first started working - housemate was OK looking chap but I had no real attraction to him.
One night, my BF and I had sex and he had been drinking - he ejaculated in me and fell asleep very quickly and left me totally frustrated. I crept into my housemate's room and got in his bed and asked him to finish the job - rather dirty and I believe it is called sloppy seconds!

Love this!

I smoke weed. Luckily not in UK but where it's legal. It relaxes me. And I'm very healthy.

I watch porn, gangbangs mostly 😝

Omg, that’s horrendous. If they don’t understand, are they really your friends.

Some dog people are to much.

I despised my ex inlaws and I'm glad they're dead and not around to see my daughter. Narcissistic, manipulative horrible people. I also wouldn't care if all my former inlaws fell off a cliff.

I’ve been having an affair with a married man for four and a half years. I’m single and mid 50’s, he’s 60 and been married 37 yrs. we love each other but I never want to live with a man again and he’s never leaving his wife.

@SecretShitter your name and story cracked me up.

My sister who was dying with secondaries from skin cancer in 1990 asked me the same thing. I agreed that I would, luckily it wasn't necessary.

I took her home for the weekend - she knew she didn't have too long but wasn't in unbearable pain and was still all there mentally - which was her biggest fear, and took her back to hospital on the Sunday afternoon. She phoned all the family and her friends during that weekend and (kind of) said her last goodbyes although those words weren't' actually spoken. She died the following weekend. It was as if she had decided it was time, said her goodbyes and chose to go. (Her consultant had said she had 3 to 6 months left).

I'm glad I didn't have to follow through with my promise but I like to think I would have if necessary. It really is so wrong that people are forced to go on breathing after they have decided that they no longer have any quality left.

I have never told any of my family this

I scour Facebook for traces of the OW my husband went of with. I want to see that she has a shitty life ( he didn't stay with her but it ruined me)
I fantasise going off with her husband and making him leave her for me. Then I would reveal myself to everyone on Christmas Day

I take deep breaths in our communal staircase of the lingering amalgam of female perfume; male, suddenly single at 48.😢

Same, only every few years. I've just finished The Man Who Made Husbands Jealous and Appassionata, onto Wicked now..!