Secret confessions thread

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Okay, so, we all have these thoughts; things we know we DEFINITELY are being unreasonable about and yet we can't help but think them.

This is that thread. A chance to say whatever you want judgement free. You know it's silly, you know it makes no sense but it's how you feel. Feel free to share! It might make me feel a little less crazy.

I'll go first...

My best friend gave birth to twins today and I am INSANELY jealous. Simply because I want twins. I know it's stupid, I know I likely won't even have twins but I want them so badly and now she has them. I feel like she's stolen the twin dust and there will be none left for me!

Like I said - just somewhere to post how you're feeling consequence free

I have (had) four younger sisters. 3 are pure evil bullies towards me and one of my sisters who I stayed close too. I decided to blank the 3 evil ones 8 years ago with no regrets. But the sister I still had a great relationship with died from Covid a year ago. I miss her every day and do wish she was still here and one of the other evil ones had died.

I left an extremely abusive relationship coming up to 3 years ago.. My ex gaslight and emotionally abused me beyond belief.. I didn't even know what day it was anymore. One specific incident sticks in my mind.. He switched the freezer off on purpose and blamed me.. Despite protests. I was forced to accept the blame and clear out and replace everything in the freezer. I knew I was being gaslighted. The day I left him, I went to the local supermarket and bought 4 sides of salmon on the reduced section. These were sporadically hidden around the house. Behind the freezer, in his wardrobe, and some other hard to find places.. Let's just say, it was the middle of a heatwave :). In addition to that, I also half emptied the washing detergent and poured a bottle of bleach in to it so when he did his washing he got a lovely surprise.

Then I walked out of his house with one bag of possessions and our child and never looked back.

Name changed for this as I think she's on here.

I really really dislike my stepdaughter, like bordering on hate. She's 27 has a husband and a baby but still won't fuck off and give us some space, she always wants something (normally money) and dh just panders to her because he is scared of upsetting her.

She wants us to all go away on holiday next year and I'd rather chew off my own foot, she also wants help with childcare but I want to tell her to piss off and stand on her own two feet for once like we all have to do.

She's just always there and I don't want to be around her anymore.

Not a long term solution, but put her in her bouncer and take her into the bathroom with you.

I don't like any of my siblings (2 sisters, 1 brother) sometimes I think it must be me that's the issue as how can I be so unlucky to have 3 siblings and not like any of them? None of them know I don't like them, I'm as nice as pie to their face. But imo they are all arrogant, judgemental, boring twats. I consider myself to be a lovely person though so not sure what went wrong with them.

I know this post makes me look a twat myself but as it's no judgement and we are getting things off our chest I've never told anyone this before.

It’s one of the joys of mumsnet

I hear you. Only I have a brother and not a sister, but my sentiment is the same.

I have accidentally been wearing a far too inappropriate and boob revealing top on so many of the work teams calls since the first lockdown,.it has got me worked up a few times that I have had to log off during the meeting to have a quick play

Yes, this! I'm actually jealous of my 19 year old daughter who brings home a different gorgeous boy every couple of months who all think she's the best thing in the world......I love my husband, but there's no feeling like it....

Is it just me or is anyone else giggling hysterically at each confession REP22 makes?
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@TheShameFollowsMe

You can’t just stop there!! - give us a crumb…

I hate my SIL, she’s an awful, nasty piece of work. A stupid big mouthed opinionated narcissist. I’ve endured her for over 30 years. I can’t wait for her to fuck off & hopefully die a painful death. She has terrible health issues, but sods law she’ll outlive us all.

I love this (not the abuse part of your life obviously) but how you walked away and left little surprises for him.

@ILoveMonday There are other complications. Needless to say, it doesn't stop me fantasising about it!

I dont like dogs or any pets and actually hate when people show me pictures of their pets or talk about them.

Waiting for my brother to die. So when I turn up at the funeral and people ask who are you. I can stand there and say his sister and wait for the shit storm to kick off. His family have no idea I even exist. For when our dad died he completely cut me off. ( he was married with a family and I was only a kid at the time)
will happily rejoice when my mother goes.
I wish I was skinny. No matter what I can’t lose weight and threw how I grew up I barley eat anything and when I do I feel guilty.
I love my husband and family but sometimes just wish I was on my own.

@LittleAngle85 sorry but I am judging you very harshly on that, by screwing up options for those of us not in that position.

I wish my Fil would die and leave us our inheritance so I can give up work

Are you still scrubbing yourself with bleach to this day?

I slept with my friend’s widowed dad a few years after his wife died. I was 30.
He was almost 60 and had never had a blowjob.
He was very appreciative.
We had a very brief fling but I honestly couldn’t take the level of adoration (not a humble brag; he’d never been with another woman) and in the end, I invented a fake boyfriend.
He was a lovely man and is now remarried 25 years later. I bump into him now and again and we have a little hug.

You are incredible for trying to give him relief

Same here 🙈

How did you not see yourself on the calls?

I am still in love with one of my Boyfriends from my teenage years, despite the fact it was about 40years ago, we both married other people, and he passed away suddenly in his mid twenties, after being involved in a road accident.

Sometimes l wonder if there really is a spiritual after life, and if one day l may see him again? I have had a few incidents happen where the situation had a strong link to him that no one else could never known about, and it was as though he had staged it to let me know he was still around. I am now married to my husband for nearly 35years, he has a son from his first marriage, when he first started to tell me this just after we met, he asked what l would call a baby boy if ever we had one together, and my reply was Exactly the same as my late boyfriend, only to see a look of shock come over my partners face, before he said, ‘Those are both my Son’s exact names, how did you decide it would be those’?

l have since told him the full story, and even he felt rather spooked by it, but we never did have a Son together, only Daughters, but l did choose one of my Daughters names with my late boyfriend in mind. Am l Crazy or Wot?

What a sad and evil thread this has turned to be. So much hate and lots of people wishing death on others.
It’s one thing to admitting stupid silly things done and fantasies wished for (we’ve all been there) , but hoping for death and more is really a step too far.