Secret confessions thread

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Okay, so, we all have these thoughts; things we know we DEFINITELY are being unreasonable about and yet we can't help but think them.

This is that thread. A chance to say whatever you want judgement free. You know it's silly, you know it makes no sense but it's how you feel. Feel free to share! It might make me feel a little less crazy.

I'll go first...

My best friend gave birth to twins today and I am INSANELY jealous. Simply because I want twins. I know it's stupid, I know I likely won't even have twins but I want them so badly and now she has them. I feel like she's stolen the twin dust and there will be none left for me!

Like I said - just somewhere to post how you're feeling consequence free

@WorkChange so juicy. Do you never worry he'll find out? No judgement, just generally curious!

I had a crush on the local supermarket senior manager for nearly 3 years although ive been married 20 years with 2 adult children, happy life. However whenever i saw this guys face i was just a mess inside. We used to catch each others eyes a lot or maybe that was him just wondering why i stared at him lol. He left the store 6 months ago and i still fee devasted and miss my weekly fix of serious crush feelings.

Love this! Are you planning to divorce in the end or just have a lover for fun and good sex? I wish I would find a good men....

Brilliant! 😃

@lucyintheskywivdiamonds I have read this too. Although saying this there is a big difference between a fantasy and reality for me.

I know what you mean.
I bought a house outright in 2016 in a really popular area in the Midlands, a place where my parents always wanted to move to but couldn't afford to.
When I told my mum she shouted at me "where did you get all that money?!"
Instead of being happy for me the btch was jealous and somehow didn't believe I could have the money.
I've been working full time since 21 in high paying jobs and unfortunately haven't had kids yet.
Of course, I'm going to have lots of money.
She somehow refuses to acknowledge that I have a good job, wealth and status.
She once told relatives I worked in a supermarket and another time that I was working illegally - because she's too stupid to understand what umbrella companies are.
I actually could not care less about the btch either now, just can't admit it to people as people judge for not loving your mother!

Oh, another time I stayed with her in hospital whilst she was left on a trolley thing in a corridor for 13 hours plus operation time plus talking to all the doctors with broken English as her English was also heavily accented - she tells people that is was my sister that was with her that day - my sister refused to come to the hospital as hospitals make her sick!

I actively dislike children. When my best friend got pregnant it felt like a betrayal and I've barely seen her in four years.

And one more - I constantly taking cash from my husband's purse while he is drunk and asleep. I'm just feeling so upset he'll spend money on alcohol or his mistress. I'm going to nice coffee shop with my child next day and buying ice creams for £15 and posh coffee. And toys too, or paid playground. He never noticed because he thinks he spent them.

Yep! 😔

I detest young children and dogs. So many are over indulged and are not disciplined.

Kids I avoid like the plague, plan my trips abroad in term time, never travel on mid terms or bank hols, always go to a private apartment never a resort. I would never ever harm them, but I can give the most obnoxious of the little fuckers "the eye" and they usually run away. Thank God.

Dogs are for working, catching rats, rounding up sheep that kind of thing, not as suburbia's little fur bags. They are in many ways worse than kids, they shit everywhere, they bark, invade your space on walks, they can attack, bite, run around you and their owners think you HAVE to like them. Nope.

I actually love myself though. Hell is other people (and dogs). If I said the above to anyone I know I would be completely ostracised, so I play the game with gritted teeth.

i consider myself to be heterosexual in that I have always only been attracted to men.

At the same time I do not think most men are worthy of female attention tbh and I can certainly see myself one day falling in love with a woman.

Interesting. Can you elaborate?

I do agree that really ' doggy ' people can be a bit intense , it is ' love me , love my dog ' isn't it? Some owners prefer them to their own children or husbands I think !

Who me to elaborate? Not really. It is a feeling that is not thought through if you see what I mean.

I think more women are interesting, attractive and inspiring than men. Who tbh I consider on the whole to be a bit dull.

But sexually (at the moment) I am only attracted to men. I am almost 50 and have never fantasised about women at all.

Maybe I need a young man for the physical stuff and a woman for the intellectual company.

My Step Dad was suddenly diagosed with terminal brain cancer last year. He was unable to walk due to the tumour causing paralysis and caused him to struggle with his speech. We were alone one day and clear as anything, he asked me to help him end his life so he didn't have to suffer anymore. I told him I would if I could but I couldn't and had to watch for another 4 weeks as cancer stole who he was. I have never told anyone what he asked me as I don't want them to think he gave up

@fizzywat I completely agree with you on kids and dogs! Annoying, smelly, noisy, not for me 😝

I euthanased our hamster a few weeks ago, it was sick and we were going to take it to the vet the next day but while they were out at a kids club I concocted a humane method of bringing on the inevitable. everyone thinks it died naturally and I'll take the truth to my grave.

I’m so so sorry.

I don’t see why you feel you have to play the game.
I’ve 3 dogs, no children. I’m not bothered if people don’t like my dogs, that’s their opinion and they are entitled to it.
I have a friend who doesn’t like dogs and when she comes over I pop the dogs in the bedroom so she doesn’t interact with them and we have a nice time together.

I don't like life. I don't like it at all. I've had loads of different life experiences and I don't need any more.

I love my immediate family (Mum, Dad, child) but I just find life...all kinds of things. Irritating, boring, mundane, pointless... and that's even when something 'exciting' is happening. I feel like somewhere along the line something in me just died. I'm not suicidal but I just go through the motions and some mornings I could weep at the thought of another day.

The only thing I can think that would be close to exciting would be to never have to work again - that's the biggest waste of my life. If I won huge on the Euromillions, life would be slightly more bearable because I'd never have to work again (certainly not into my 60s) but I can't think that there would be anything that would particularly excite me, even if money were no object. People do awful things, we've fucked up the planet and everybody struggles, money or not.

I worked with a truly awful woman who regularly boasted about how she was fluent in French. I switched the language on her computer to French Canadian one lunchtime.

She returned from lunch, aghast, then had to eat humble pie to IT as she couldn’t switch it back.

Since I moved I’ve stopped recycling all together due to the absolute cretins I now live alongside. I just don’t see the point because every other week we have a letter through the door asking people not to put dirty nappies in the recycling as it ruins the whole bin. DP still recycles where he can’t but I cbf anymore as most loads will be un-recyclable. Cans, cardboard, bottles, the lot, go in one, main bin. Saves space in the kitchen and a lot of time and effort. Once I move back to somewhere with decent neighbours, I’ll recycle again.9

I’m also hoping the little shit next door who kicks a ball at full pelt against my window and railings for hours every single day would break his leg, or worse. He’s about 12 and such a thug already.

My ex was abusive and controlling. On one "make up" date at home I made him a lovely dinner snd mixed satchets of cat food in it. He loved it. Ifound out he'd created snd used his credit card to sign up to port sites and chat lines!

I also secretly wish I could win the lottery, hand out cheques to my kids & good friends then tell the rest to fuck off especially those that have abandoned me this last 18 mths, plus stick 2 fingers up to my ex husband because we both signed a form for total severance of assets.

I also talk to myself, I’ve made up a whole family & everything.

Wish I had an older brother instead of a younger sister, I can’t stand her.

When making out with an ex, in the living room, really glamorous.
I was watching the motorbikes and was pretending I was having sex with, one of the motorbike racers not my boyfriend.