Secret confessions thread

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Okay, so, we all have these thoughts; things we know we DEFINITELY are being unreasonable about and yet we can't help but think them.

This is that thread. A chance to say whatever you want judgement free. You know it's silly, you know it makes no sense but it's how you feel. Feel free to share! It might make me feel a little less crazy.

I'll go first...

My best friend gave birth to twins today and I am INSANELY jealous. Simply because I want twins. I know it's stupid, I know I likely won't even have twins but I want them so badly and now she has them. I feel like she's stolen the twin dust and there will be none left for me!

Like I said - just somewhere to post how you're feeling consequence free

My DH doesn't eat chicken in any way, shape or form. When he pisses me off, he gets chicken gravy with his Sunday roast. Makes me smile every time

Another one...

Think my 19 year old step daughter is a money grabbing slosh.

I’ve been having a thing for years with a man who just wants me to tie him up. We’re both happily married. I’ve never done this with anyone else. I feel no guilt because it’s the only thing in my life that is just for me,

I was glad when my MIL died. And so was her son, my DH. She was toxic and I have been picking up the pieces with DH for years.

My siblings’ kids are awful and we avoid seeing them as much as possible.

I vape in secret.

My parents were deeply inadequate, I go through the motions of affection now they are older but I will not miss them.

Thank you for your kind words ❤
I'm really sorry for what you have gone through. I hope you have found some peace. You're right- its bloody tough and it feels unfair at times, but we persevere.

Love it

I'm doing the same tl get out of dtd

Just tried it. Fantastic tip. Will do it next time. Thanks!

Me too! Please fill us in 🤣

Same here lol. Both of us lying naked on the bed on our back airing our bits 😂😂

It's a confession thread. You need help for trying to police her.

I was never good at school and have only ever had low paid jobs. My older sister would openly gloat at any misfortune I had and parade her husband’s inherited second hand wealth. I got into a spiral of debt and got myself out of it by growing weed in the attic. I told my sister I got a special courier job delivering top secret documents all over the country and I couldn’t talk about it. She believed me and I got out of debt and saved up enough to start a legitimate business and buy my own house. She’s still a gloaty cow but I don’t care anymore.

Same but with my partners daughter 🙈 she is so greedy and always being rude to me.

I assume not, for numerous reasons, but I'm absolutely not willing to test that out, so there's been a degree of distancing going on. The annoying part is that there was a time, quite a while ago before they were married, where it might have been, but things were complicated back then. But that means there's a tiny part of my brain that's going "SEE! Remember that? If things were different it COULD work!" and I have to mentally slap it upside the head and tell it not to be so daft.

I have a very well paid job due to a professional qualification I have.

I cheated on every exam I took for the qualification. I kept my phone on me and looked up the answers in the toilet. One time, I took too long so I faked a migraine and the invigilators looked after me.

No one knows. Not even my husband.

My DP is an absolutely shit dad to dsd
Just the same as my dad was with me at that age and I can see what's going to happen in the future
She comes to us for a few HOURS every 2nd weekend and that is not enough
I feel rotten for her. She doesn't even call him dad. She forgets his 'name' often calling him 'that guy' if speaking about him

She loves me and I love her. He is just a shite dad to her and I think he thinks the great job he does with our ds makes it ok. It doesn't

@Demilei

🤣 go on lass!

I sometime wee in my garden when I’m desperate & their is someone in the bathroom. I don’t care either. My teenagers would be horrified though-not sure the neighbours would be happy either.

@Angelinflipflops . No, I don’t. I was 30 when she was born and it was still another 15 years before we knew she existed. My poor mother!

Nobody knows how I feel, by the way. I’m as polite and friendly as I can be and paid her last set of school fees after my father died. Which made her more determined that we should be the best of besties, unfortunately. Gratitude can be most inconvenient.

Even when she texted me with best wishes because she’d heard I had COVID recently, I thought “oh, go away.”

Yep. I’m a bitch. Oh well. Sorry.

Sometimes, when there's not even any water in it.

@Flat04 no but I will now. Always thought I just didn’t have a heart

There's a member of my family that, I'm a bit ashamed to say, I'm always thinking 'Jesus, are you not dead yet?'. He's been a bit of a shadow in my life. Knowing my luck he'll live to 100. I suppose it's a wicked thing to feel but it's just how I feel.

@PyongyangKipperbang

I hope you get that windfall. Your dream deserves fulfilment.

Thank you, thats very kind although extremely unlikely to happen, if only because by the time I could afford to do this I would be too old to attract young lovers.....although its amazing how horny young men can get over an extremely rich old lady!!

Oh and @PGordino love the name....do you fart once with every step?!

My relationship looks perfect on the outside, 6 bed house, 2 cars, husband earns 80k, ive been a SAHM for many years but it's been 26 years of hell. Ive hidden it well but it's taken it's toll on my health. Nobody knows how controlling and abusive he is. I'm always on eggshells. People don't realise what a wreck I am. The house is a tip because I just can't find the energy to clean and tidy. It takes a lot out of me to get up every day and just get by. I'm constantly told I'm fat, lazy and not good enough. We've been in separate rooms for over 15 years. I'm so glad to have my own room. I could afford a new bed recently due to a small inheritance, before that it was the sofa or a mouldy lumpy single bed. Nobody has a clue what is going on. He earns over 80k, I recently got a part time job so earn around 10k, he wants me to contribute to bills etc. I can barely afford shopping and other miscellaneous stuff. He tells me how rubbish I am because I can only earn minimum wage. I'm a big let down. He has berated me for having no ambition etc but has puts tight restrictions on when and where I can work incase it inconveniences him and his job. I have to cook tea on time etc. His family have mentioned me not having a job for years, looking at me like I can't be bothered and living off my husband they don't know the situation and I'm always covering up. Today I was so frustrated and distracted by his behaviour I wanted to stab myself in the arm. It just felt the right thing to do but I suddenly snapped out of it. I have to live like this or I can't live with my children, it's a cruel choice. My husband is a heartless bastard. Nobody knows his dark temper and dark moods. I've wasted so much of my life on him being loyal and supportive. He cheated on me years ago, I could never do that. He treats me disrespectfully all the time. My work is exhausting but it is a great place to go and escape to for a few hours. Coming home is like walking under a black cloud. I needed to get all that out.