Sunday night work blues.. I'm in floods of tears

[itsoneofthosethings]

I posted recently regarding how unhappy I feel with work.

I got back from a weeks holiday on Friday, and the entire way through the holiday and over this weekend, I've been feeling seriously down and depressed.

I do have anxiety, I take medication for it. But the way im feeling right now is just another level.

I can't even decide what it is that's making me feel so low. As soon as I think about work, going back, seeing the colleagues I work with, I just break down in tears. Im shaking, feel sick, I just can't stop crying.

DP doesn't understand it, said there's no possible way I could be depressed.. I've got 'everything' I could ever want. This is really not about what I have and haven't got. Im seriously struggling, feeling extremely low, and I don't know where to turn to. I can't see a way out.

I've considered quitting work tomorrow with immediate effect; even though I know it's a stupid thing to do, just because I can't face the thought of going in. I've been swooped so low as to 'hope' I get admitted into hospital or similar so I've got a valid reason not to have to go in. This is so unlike me I can't recognise how I'm feeling.

I don't know what to do. I just can't stop crying. I think it stems from frustrating, micromanaging emails from a colleague at EXACTLY the same working level as me in my office, the entire time I've been away. I don't feel like I've had a break, and I'm struggling with asserting myself in the workplace so also fully aware I get completely walked all over. I just don't know what to do.

Whatever you do don't engage with that colleague. Make her sweat.

Hi @itsoneofthosethings You’ve had lots of good advice about the emotional side, which I hope can help you. My comment is more practical. You said that your work was handed over to another colleague to cover while you were away, but Annoying Colleague has been emailing you about various issues while you’ve been on leave. Are these to do with work you did before you went on leave, or work that your other colleague did while you were on leave and they were covering your role?

If the emails are for work being done while you were on leave, why wasn’t she emailing the colleague covering your role instead?

If this is the case, I’d mention it to your manager and say there’s no point in Annoying Colleague sending you emails while you’re on leave, as you won’t be reading them. It flags up the issue of over-bearing emails, while not raising your issues with Annoying Colleague directly, so you can see how your manager responds to criticisms of Annoying Colleague.

Do you have any access to counselling through occupational health at your work?

How are you @itsoneofthosethings did nobody speak to you all day? That’s awful.

Was wondering how you are today @itsoneofthosethings

Hi all,
I'm feeling okay today so far, thank you!
I've still not spoken a word to colleague.

@itsoneofthosethings are they just not speaking at all?!