It is my 30th birthday tomorrow.
I also have a 3 hour psychology exam in the morning.
Thing is, education was never encouraged in our house, which is why I am outting myself through university now, at 30. I'm in my final year of a joint degree & working my butt off to gain something...for me!
Anyway, my parents have always been very dismissive of my life choices, especially the ones that have meant I have been studying for the past 7 years (both part time & full time) to get the job of my dreams.
My parents arrived today at 2.30, I wasn't in, was getting dd from school. I then stopped at my MIL's house, she lives a short walk away but I parked at her home rather than my own home. Now, may parents would have had to drive past my ILs house to get to mine... but they never noticed my car apparently. Anyway, I left my phone in the car so didn't get the calls. Then my dad pulled up at my MILs house & told me they were waiting on me for half an hour but they were going home seeing as I had no manners.
I left MIL's & came home. My parents came in & had a cup of tea.. during which I told them I had an exam in the morning. They asked what it was for etc.. and how long I had left of my degree, what it was I wanted to do when I had graduated. I said ideally journalism but I have to do an MA which at the minute won't be financially possible.. then my mam asked me why I didn't just get a job in the shop.. why I was bothering with university, and my dad helpfully added that journalism was a dream for younger people. Not for me.
I then said between times (whilst saving for the MA) I might get into the civil service.. my dad asked what the civil service would want me for?
Sorry.. I was so deeply hurt & upset. Then he & my mam fell out & he went home without her. (perfectly normal) So I was lumbered with her all evening added a visit from my 3 sisters' & their children, I haven't had a second to study.
Also, my mam told my dh about my 2 cousins who are at university, one doing a nursing degree & the other a criminology.. then she added "But they're useful jobs.. I don't even know the name of the degree our XXXX is doing!"
My mam & my last sister have just went home. I'm too wound up to sleep & too knackered to study.
Fuck them! Fuck the fucking pair of them! I have sweated blood, guts & tears to get this far... I told a friend yesterday she probably couldn't come to my graduation as my mam would want to go.. seems I was fucking wrong.
Sorry for the length... just good to get it all out