Our business was decimated by corona virus. To put it into context it relies on international travel and movement of workers. We were BRINGING HOME (net pay) over £100,000 pa. Within a week we lost our whole income. We had to lay off 3 employees once furlough ended. 2 years later we are bringing home less than half that from 2 businesses - includes another business we started during lockdown. I am also working in a stable job (stable as in there's always work in the field but still only a temp contract) which was my previous career so overall our household income is around half of pre corona. (So around £50,000) I had left that career late 2019 mainly due to not needing to work and ill health.
We moved house in 2019 and our mortgage is big, we could obviously afford it easily then. We can't easily move as we wouldn't get a mortgage on even a cheaper property right now (self assessment) and rent would be the same in even a smaller house. For context mortgage is just less than half of our income now. It's been tough but now we finally have "enough"
We had worked hard to get where we were and continue to work hard and are incredibly lucky to have had the skills to open our new business (completely non related to main business) which also benefited from one of the government lockdown schemes. The profit of that is not enough to live on however (wouldn't cover the mortgage) My career is a government one, there will always be work but pay is limited as with all govt jobs. I am still in ill health.
Things are further complicated in that we have business partners (another family). For various reasons our business relationship has become problematic yet neither family can afford to extricate themselves.
During the last 2 years we have taken a mortgage break which increased our payments by around £100 when we started paying again. I have worked several temporary and at times very difficult contracts and my health has deteriorated further.
Anyway that's the jist of the story, emotionally it has been really tough. We're both very hard workers and in our mid 40s it's tough to have started businesses from scratch again! We have 3 children.
But I don't know anyone else who has such a huge and ongoing impact on their income.
AIBU to think we're in the minority? I can't tell you how many people I see who seemingly enjoyed a lovely break from work on furlough while still being paid or worked from home doing exactly the same work but without the commute.
I suspect I'm being very middle class and actually should get over myself, any anecdotes that make me feel like a twat for how I feel will be graciously welcomed.
I also suspect the problems with the business partnership are making me feel more bitter than I should.
I'm not stupid btw I know people will be worse off than us and we could obviously live on less if it wasn't for the house. It's not a flash house, we just live in a high cost area. I just don't see anyone else on half the income of before with double the effort.
Go ahead and give me a stern talking to if you need to. I'm just glad to get how I feel off my chest!