Going to bed sad. Is there something in the air?

[Cryingintomypillow]

The past two nights the evening has hit and I’ve just wanted to cry and eat my feelings. Feeling really sad and just meh. Anyone else? Something in the air?

So sorry 😞 about your dog, @Lansonmaid

@Lansonmaid you have every reason to be tearful. It breaks your heart doesn't it 💐

Oh I'm sorry about your Ddog @Lansonmaid that's so sad

@KurtWilde You sound really nice to me - and even though you're hurt and thinking about that situation, you asked the OP how she was feeling. Was there alcohol involved, when your friend said those horrid things? It wouldn't excuse it, but it might explain it. I'm with other posters - I think it's more about her than about you.

@Cas112

I think January tends to be a down month for a lot of people OP.

I'd definitely agree with this. There are so many reasons why it's understandable that people would feel down what with having come through another COVID wave, it's the middle of winter with the dark mornings and evenings, it's a long pay month and obviously the news hasn't been the best BUT we are heading for spring now and lighter evenings, it will start to warm up, we are getting past the worst of the COVID wave and spring is always a mood enhancer.

So sorry about your dog lansonmaid
I have Covid, my beloved dad died too young from it a year ago tomorrow and it's been both the longest and shortest year of my life. I am very lucky to have two super little girls, but they won't know their amazing grandad growing up I had a little cry earlier about it.
Also (related) very angry with this government, and I've been known to vote Tory before. Spoilt my paper last time though. What a shitshow

Thank you for posting this I've felt like this all day x

Me too

Cried myself to sleep last night

The Dementors must be breading

I am feeling crappy this week too. After a MMC in Nov I was hoping that I would be pregnant again now but AF came yesterday and PMT like a freight train. Came home from work, ate a whole bar of chocolate, cried, fell asleep and tried to not let DH know how shit I felt when he got home and I told him no pregnancy this month.

It's not just me then! So sad and low ATM and can't seem to pull myself out of it. Keep thinking about coming up to 70 this year and that my days are numbered now....no idea where this has come from as I'm active and in good health.
Agree that it's probably the time of year and sending love and kind thoughts to everyone feeling sad and a big hug for anyone reduced to tears. Peace and love ❤️ 💐 X

I have had horrible anxiety and feelings of doom since Christmas. I'm trying to control it with exercise and deep breathing and beta blockers. I think the last two years and all the awfulness has caught up with me. Constantly in a state of panic.

I think there's a lot of that around too OP. Think what we have endured mentally the last two years 💐💐💐

I always hate January and feel really low. It's the lack of light, I think and I can't find my SAD lamp.

I feel very grumpy and overwhelmed with life. And I'm seriously considering a re-design of the patio with DH firmly buried in the concrete underneath it. His restless legs are literally destroying my sleep, and he's just eaten a massive slice of cake washed down with a mug of tea meaning I'm in for another night of being kicked relentlessly. Apparently the Dr knows nothing about it and their suggestion to eat less sugar/caffeine wasn't helpful The bed in the spare room is buried under a mountain of crap and I just don't have the energy to sort it.

@Time40 thank you so much 
No alcohol involved, she was driving and I'm not much of a drinker so just water with our meal and a coffee with dessert.

I've been playing over all the many times we've hung out and thinking.. has she just been humouring me then all this time? If I'm so difficult to be around.. Like "oh god it's Kurt messaging me I suppose I should hang out for a bit and get it over with.. "

I'm going to stop with my own personal pity party now.

OP I hope you have a tear-free night 

@Willow1981 I'm so sorry about your MMC, I remember when I had mine I was torn between grief and conceiving again. I hope that happens for you soon

Yes, me too. Feel sad and fed up. There seem to be no certainties any more. Also, we cannot rely on our leaders anymore. Uncertainty is the worse thing for causing sadness and depression.

Yes OP I have felt exactly the same, I've felt a lot of things over the course of the pandemic but never sad, however this week I just feel really sad and hopeless. Can't even blame the weather as its been glorious all month pretty much here.

I feel there is nothing to look forward to and I'm sick of not doing anything nice even just little things, everything is an effort due to covid, has to be booked, then you go and it's a severely reduced experience at best to terrible at worst (which often) - because of covid/Brexit. And don't get me started on masks (I'm in Scotland), I fully support them but I'm getting the worst maskne, my skin has been OK for years but is now terrible every time I have to wear one for more than 30 minutes, it was getting me down so much. I've severely restricted where I go so I don't have to wear one but feel I'm missing out and this is making me more depressed. I just want to do simple things like take DC to indoor play areas, museums etc. Or just browse the shops.

I'm having friend problem to @KurtWilde we moved to a comp new area last spring and have made connections, two of the women I thought were becoming close friends have relegated me into the 'playdate friend zone' still happy to do that but not interested in dinner out or coffees any more, no chatty happy messages or kisses on messages etc. - which there were previously lots of chatty messages back and forth losses now short or just emojies. And I F,ing hate the thought of playdates being my sole form of socialising, one of the DC's is too young really and mine is going through the not sharing phase and it's flaming embaressing and exhausting, plus the other friend's DC who is a good 16 month older has started being a bit mean to my DC! Urghh I just want to go for a nice drink wesring nice clothes and not have competitive talk about schools or kids or houses. I had attached of childfree friends and friends with much older children where I used to live and I missing interesting conversations in nice locations so much!

That is awful though re your friend Kurt, I wondered that re being drunk, no excuse, that would floor me too. I don't think you've anything to lose by trying to get to the bottom of it.

I've cried a lot this week. A mix of despair and monotony and sadness. Had some bad news and that set me back too.

I woke up crying the other day having gone to bed alright...it was very sad and I don't know why...

@Ukelelele why? Pointless comment on a zombie thread. Reported.