Going to bed sad. Is there something in the air?

[Cryingintomypillow]

The past two nights the evening has hit and I’ve just wanted to cry and eat my feelings. Feeling really sad and just meh. Anyone else? Something in the air?

Totally feeling the same. So fed up and miserable as soon as I stop to think about anything. Just eaten three crème eggs and now feel even worse!

It's weird, I woke up this morning the same - just a feeling of sadness and impending doom, for no reason at all. I even didn't go out on a planned run first thing because I thought something bad might happen in the dark by myself. Totally irrational.

January is a dark, dank - and even without having SAD- a pretty shit month. I'm desperate for some sunshine and spring!

Yes. 100%. I’m dealing with a break up which really is what I want but the missing him is starting to creep in. And missing our cats. And just everything being easy and safe and comfortable. I just feel really emotional all the time and I’m absolutely shattered and all I want to do is just sit in bed and eat a block of cheese.

It's sadness on more than one level maybe? January bleakness plus taking stock of the past 2 years. I saw photos come up on my FB feed of a family weekend away in Jan. 2020. Lots of smiley faces of DH and DC in cafes and restaurants. Meeting up with friends who live in the town we visited. Hugs, not a mask in sight, life seemed so carefree then.

Fast forward to the present and I'm still wfh and while I enjoy aspects of this set-up, it can be lonely. Add to that the political shambles we're in with partygate etc. So YANBU OP, there are probably very good reasons for the sadness you feel.

FWIW what help me a bit is keeping track on sunrise and sunset times. Like a PP said, we've gained an hr already!

@Cryingintomypillow
Im with you, not being here is more appealing than being here, I phoned my doc today to get my antidepressants back again, but app she won't give me them until she talks to me tomorrow. Hand hold for you 💐

@KurtWilde

Someone I've known for a very long time and thought was one of the very few people I could actually call friend, told me - after what I thought was a a fab evening of catch up of laughter and conversation - that they find me hard to be around. I laughed it off initially and said you mean occasionally? No, 99% of the time, including tonight. I excused myself and went home. It really, really upset me. I'm a warts and all kind of person, but I always try to give people the best version of myself. I had no idea they felt like this. Now I'm thinking everyone I know probably feels like this too. It's knocked me for six.

I'm just really sad that all this time they haven't even enjoyed my company. I made a real effort this evening to organise childcare and a meal out. And for what?

I've had a good cry. Feel better for that.

If I'm so difficult to be around they don't need to bother being around me again.

Sorry you had all this after making the effort for everyone.

Perhaps your friend is feeling bad about things and just took it out on you in the moment. What they said might not be the truth - just a sudden fit of misery/irritation and hitting out?

@KurtWilde unless you're the kind of person who picks arguments and complains or is rude to waiting staff I really can't imagine anything much could justify that comment. You certainly don't sound difficult to relate to, How unnecessary.

I got left out of something organised by an old friend last weekend. My job makes things awkward apparently. Based on absolutely nothing. So hurtful but there's not a lot I can do.

My friend and I both said we felt a bit flat and joyless today. The weather entirely matched. It didn't really get fully light. I wonder if that's linked.

to you all. It will pass.

Agree with previous poster about the relentless stream of bad news. Covid, lying politicians, Russia and potential war, NHS struggling....on and on....all big stuff. It's all so disappointing.
I'm usually quite upbeat, but I'm having days where I'm struggling because everything seems grim or ridiculous (Boris Johnson)

@LostMyLastHatfulOfWords maybe.. we talk often and have shared a lot of life's low points with each other. She knows she can confide in me if there's something going on in her life, just really upset that she saw fit to lash out like that and I guess I feel like I didn't deserve it.

It's been a crap month for a lot of us by the looks of it. After a relatively calm patch with exh he seems determined to cause upset left right and centre this month. so that's another thing that's had me in tears tonight! Must get a grip.

Must get a grip

Be kind to yourself. You're having a shitty time by the sound of it. You sound lovely, I bet you wouldn't tell a friend in your position to get a grip. Give yourself a break

[quote KurtWilde]@LostMyLastHatfulOfWords maybe.. we talk often and have shared a lot of life's low points with each other. She knows she can confide in me if there's something going on in her life, just really upset that she saw fit to lash out like that and I guess I feel like I didn't deserve it.

It's been a crap month for a lot of us by the looks of it. After a relatively calm patch with exh he seems determined to cause upset left right and centre this month. so that's another thing that's had me in tears tonight! Must get a grip. [/quote]
I think you'd know if you deserved what she said!
It must have been more about her than about you... but that doesn't make it easier to take.

This is a friendship to reconsider? It sounds to go too much one way.

Your exh is an ex for his terrible timing?

@whirlycarly ah that's really crappy! I'm sorry you got left out by your friend.

I used to work in hospitality and I know they get stick from customers, so it's not something I do myself!

Dunno. Don't get it. It's proper thrown me but it is what it is I guess.

Another one who's feeling the same.

To me January is such an anticlimax month, theres months of build up to Christmas, then the 'fun/joy/sparkle' of Christmas is over so quickly, then there's the pressure and adverts of the whole, new year, new me bullshit, when in reality the days are dark/cold and the month feels 700days long and nothing changes. Everyone is skint because they all got paid way before Christmas so not much spare money for anything 'fun'.

It's just a generally shit time of year.

@KurtWilde

Someone I've known for a very long time and thought was one of the very few people I could actually call friend, told me - after what I thought was a a fab evening of catch up of laughter and conversation - that they find me hard to be around. I laughed it off initially and said you mean occasionally? No, 99% of the time, including tonight. I excused myself and went home. It really, really upset me. I'm a warts and all kind of person, but I always try to give people the best version of myself. I had no idea they felt like this. Now I'm thinking everyone I know probably feels like this too. It's knocked me for six.

I'm just really sad that all this time they haven't even enjoyed my company. I made a real effort this evening to organise childcare and a meal out. And for what?

I've had a good cry. Feel better for that.

If I'm so difficult to be around they don't need to bother being around me again.

Fuck that's brutal sorry @KurtWilde they sound like a dick I really doubt everyone feels that way

Well fuck, there was me thinking it's just me that's been on this weird downward spiral. I've been feeling rotten, mood-wise, the last few weeks. We were isolating at New Year so missed out on time with my parents etc then there was covid at the school so again I've not been seeing people. I barely sleep at night due to anxious thoughts and insomnia then I sleep a lot of the day and generally feel shit. Even chocolate and a cuppa isn't perking me up.

Got a very rare childfree weekend coming up so hoping that helps reset me.

If you're in the UK it's such a hard time of year - dark, cold, grey. Also the news is appalling, and we're almost two years into a global pandemic. Everyone is exhausted and running out of energy to try and pep themselves up. It's definitely really normal.

It's quite sunny where I am so I'm trying to get outside as much as possible but still struggling. Thinking of planting some bulbs indoors to remind me that spring is coming.

@neverbeenskiing

Must get a grip

Be kind to yourself. You're having a shitty time by the sound of it. You sound lovely, I bet you wouldn't tell a friend in your position to get a grip. Give yourself a break

Thank you 

@nellly proper thrown me for a six. On top of some other crap that's been going on with exh it's nicely put the cherry on top of January!

Sorry to everyone who's struggling this month, let's hope when the sun starts shining we can all pick ourselves up again

@KurtWilde ouch! that was just horrid, and a pretty cowardly way of raising any issue, if you ask me. As folks have said, it sounds like she's having issues right now, but even then, if she's never hinted at feeling like this then WHAM, just awful.

Be kind to yourself. That goes to all of us.

I'm snapping and sniping at anyone who comes in my way, and not at all myself. I have to try harder to keep it under control. Poor DH came up behind me, put coffee on my desk and kissed my head - I leapt up and said 'what do you want?' like a crazy lady. Oops.

I'm counting down the days left in this month, and am determined to enter February feeling better.

It's a tricky month, isn't it. I've got some difficult things going on but I feel that although this may sound silly, I think all the revelations about rule flaunting at no#10 has made me feel really put uopn in a really deep way. It's angering almost everyone but it's just occurred to me the stream of revelations is making me feel so put upon. I don't know how to describe it but it's like realising you're trapped in an abusive relationship. I'm surprised at myself but it just feels so unfair, wrong and totally without care for everyone else. It's like the stage set is falling down and behind it is just a horrible group of bullies pulling the strings.

Yes. I didn't vote for brexit, I didn't vote for the tories and while I'm normally fairly accepting of things not going my way, the whole current situation makes me feel powerless and sick to my stomach.

Where are the people with integrity? It's just relentless and indefensible piss taking.

Life has been really hard recently.

for everyone

Yep, I've been tearful for a while now. I know why it is for me, but it's unusual for me not to shake things off in time for bed so 🤷‍♀️ Hope you're ok x

I always dislike January because it's just after Christmas and feels like a let down, it goes on for ever and payday seems miles off. Been worn down with a neighbour dispute that seems to have gone on for ages, so was feeling horrible anyway but been really down today as we had to have our dear old dog put to sleep yesterday and I've been tearful all day.

I hate the next few months it's dark, cold and miserable. On a positive note I saw a few daffodils poking through the flower bed, I then noticed an enormous cat shit next to them and thought, yeah that kind of sums up how I'm feeling.