For about a week now I have had an impending sense of doom. Sounds silly doesn't it? But it's a really deep feeling, something in the pit of the stomach that has been intensifying.
I have had these strange feelings before and had that sense when someone was about to die. (And I've read many a post on here when people have mentioned this too.) It works the other way for me too, I have been seriously ill twice and had the sense I was going to be fine against the odds.
This time, something tells me its something tragic to do with me or one of the DC (less likely the ex). It's been intensifying all week. There have been lots of strange signs. I know I must sound off my rocker but these things have been out of place and I haven't been looking for them, hoping for the opposite in fact.
I am so frightened and I have never been before when I have had one of these senses. It's making me feel very unwell. And no I haven't changed any medication recently.
I neither want to see anything happen to the DC or ex, nor do I want to die a long drawn out death from covid (I am CV) or anything else. It's making me think about ending my life. Rationally that's ridiculous.
AIBU or YANBU you have these strong senses too.