I think about it but I'm not scared of death and I don't want to die.
Just the whole thing really fascinates me, I follow the work of Dr Peter Fenwick and others who have spent their life investigating how consciousness works and what happens after we die.
I believe in something, from a scientific POV as opposed to religious. I believe consciousness and quantum physics are interlinked. It really blows my mind.
For me, death would answer a lot of questions I have surrounding the subject and the mechanics of the soul/consciousness.
Either I find something wonderful and actually meet up with my lovely grandparents or it is actually oblivion, and I would have no idea 🤷🏼♀️.
I was with my grandad when he died 2018. He was poorly in hospital, very short illness but the day he died he was completely alert and fully aware of what was happening. It was such a sad day but at the same time happy? I can't explain it. He wanted us to take pictures with him, we spoke about good times and the daft bugger even pretended to be dead shortly before he actually died.
He just closed his eyes, and we held his hand as his breathing slowed. It truly was the bravest thing I've ever seen and when I think back, he spent his final hours making US feel better.
That's how I would like to go. I used to believe it would be better to hit the floor and be gone, but surrounded by my most loved would be nice too. Providing it's not a long drawn out death.
It wasn't unpleasant, he literally went out with a smile.