Anyone else still feeling flat??

[Coldwine75]

I just cant shake it off, since the pandemic and all the lockdowns, the restrictions I have no motivation to do anything still. Normally love planning days out and holidays etc but just cant be bothered, is this the effect of living life the way we all have for the past year or so? Feels like every day is the same, monotone existence.

Thanks for posting, I feel the exact same. I ended up crying this evening over our holiday being cancelled today and I can’t summon any energy to try to arrange something else, so I think we will just stay home and work this summer. It’s miserable but it’s... easier.

Lack of being able to plan and look forward to things is my biggest issue. Can’t plan a holiday, can’t plan my wedding due to international guests, don’t even know if my partner will be able to attend when I have my baby or if he’ll be able to meet his international family.

It feels sad that we are expected to be grateful and excited about such limited freedoms.

The relentless miserable weather isn’t helping.

We've all been through a lot, for an extended period of time. I don't really understand the people who have breezed out of it without a seconds thought and booked a holiday without considering that it might be cancelled, or are going out to pubs all the time. But we are all different! A lot of us need time to process things, and to heal. And maybe the slower pace of life just became normal for some of us and that's fine too.

@Wheresmybiscuit3
Solidarity

Theres a massive shortage of sperm donors so my treatment is on hold meanwhile almost a dozen couples I know are currently pregnant. I’m hiding at home because I can’t keep my fake smile up anymore. While I don’t begrudge them their happiness I just feel so sad.

@Beqhet6

I feel like this and had Covid in December. Still haven't got my smell back and taste not as good.

@Wheresmybiscuit3 I’m also getting a lot of benefit from cold water immersion/wild swimming and Wim Hof method. I wish I’d taken the time off as you’re doing, I couldn’t afford it financially but honestly if you can, the respite sounds super important. I’m working on reducing my caseload a little too, it’s been crazy. So many people needing help and huge waiting lists, I’ve definitely overworked during this whole shitshow, dealt with patients who outside of a pandemic would have probably been inpatients, and definitely neglected myself in the process. Allow yourself your own processing time. Sounds like you massively need it

Yes I am definitely feeling it, finished mat leave in April and working from home. I know DH who is WFH is feeling it to (however he is also grieving his Mum who passed away in January after a 7month battle with stage 4 lung Cancer). Had our Italy holiday moved from last year to this and finally cancelled. Worry about both our widowed parents who don't live locally but we try to see as often as we can (lockdown allowing) but work and first time parenthood means that's usually only once a month in person with regular skypes inbetween.

Really don't feel like planning anything until this pandemic is over since I'm not convinced it won't be cancelled plus not sure how safe it will be for my unvaccinated baby. I also have a partially read book that I need to finish but I end up procrastinating instead, mostly browsing rightmove for properties I can't afford. Or going online shopping, filling a basket and then getting distracted and abandoning it.

I need sunshine and a foreign beach. That would make a huge difference. DH has the kind of job that has very specific holidays and we won't be getting away this summer. I'm certainly not paying thousands for a shit holiday up the road. In fact I feel like spending nothing this summer and saving it for our next foreign blow out.

I'm not normally such a brat but there's something about a second shit summer that is pushing me over the edge after making it this far. Boris is a fucking cunt.

We’ve all been scared senseless then locked up. For eighteen months.

I’ve took the first step and called the GP. Waiting to hear for everyone today.

I feel the same @HereticFanjo

I had a feeling it would happen but our holiday was cancelled. I’m thankful we received a full refund but I’m quite sad as I could’ve done with the sun and culture change.

I need sunshine and a foreign beach. That would make a huge difference. DH has the kind of job that has very specific holidays and we won't be getting away this summer. I'm certainly not paying thousands for a shit holiday up the road. In fact I feel like spending nothing this summer and saving it for our next foreign blow out.

I'm not normally such a brat but there's something about a second shit summer that is pushing me over the edge after making it this far. Boris is a fucking cunt.

I couldn't agree more.

@colouringindoors

I need sunshine and a foreign beach. That would make a huge difference. DH has the kind of job that has very specific holidays and we won't be getting away this summer. I'm certainly not paying thousands for a shit holiday up the road. In fact I feel like spending nothing this summer and saving it for our next foreign blow out.

I'm not normally such a brat but there's something about a second shit summer that is pushing me over the edge after making it this far. Boris is a fucking cunt.

I couldn't agree more.

I agree Boris has made a lot of cock ups but we can’t blame him for the pandemic. No one in government no matter what party would’ve had a clue how to deal with a pandemic. It’s not something we’ve had to deal with before so everything was trial and error.

@colouringindoors

I need sunshine and a foreign beach. That would make a huge difference. DH has the kind of job that has very specific holidays and we won't be getting away this summer. I'm certainly not paying thousands for a shit holiday up the road. In fact I feel like spending nothing this summer and saving it for our next foreign blow out.

I'm not normally such a brat but there's something about a second shit summer that is pushing me over the edge after making it this far. Boris is a fucking cunt.

I couldn't agree more.

Same. I’m tired, overworked and overwhelmed and just bloody miserable. And fat.

Thanks for posting this thread, it’s actually helped x

I have been feeling very 'meh' for most of this year having despite getting through lockdown 1 and 2 very optimistically.
Had a screening call with a health professional for something and it included the questions for depression:
"Do activities that used to bring you joy no longer do so"
"Do you feel tired and lack energy for everyday activities"
"Do you feel unable to look forward to things?"

I said well yeah, but isn't that lockdown? She agreed with me that it was hard to tell these days.
Sick of going for a walk to the same bloody places, sick of booking activities only to cancel/postpone as rules change, fear of catching it or rather getting told to isolate.

The crap weather has not helped. With the start of summer and finally being allowed to see family further afield I have noted an improvement in myself but I still lack the get up and go I had at the start of 2020.

Yep, I feel nothing, absolutely nothing. When we do go out it’s fine but I’m not excited about it. A lot of the time we end up doing nothing at the weekend whereas before we did sooo much. Even food doesn’t taste as good as it did. All I want to do is scroll through my phone and everything else seems like hard work. I can’t get motivated to work from home and I feel like I’m constantly letting people down. I actually cried tonight as Complicated by Avril Lavigne came on Spotify and I’d have done anything to be transported back to those carefree days of the early 2000s when I was at high school. Now there’s just an endless expanse of nothing.

I’m so glad I found this thread - I thought it was just me! Have spent most of today on the sofa and eating shite and I just cannot seem to find any will or manage to be happy. Getting frustrated now by how frustrated I am 😂

Me too! I've spent the day by myself which I wanted to do, I'm a teacher so my week is busy and I never get a moment to myself, but now I have had that, I feel lonely and flat. I've sat on the settee watching Gilmore Girls and Sex and the city and hate how demotivated I am

@crochetmonkey74 at least you watched actual programmes - I watched YouTube videos on how not to do what I was doing and be all motivated. 😂

Books - same, always loved reading and started a good one but I cant seem to summon any interest atm to carry on reading, thought id take dd out today but you cant just pop out anymore, everything has to be pre booked and planned so what is the point. agghhhh hate this feeling...................,

For me the lack of spontaneity is killing usual pleasures. What was a disappointment was I had booked to attend an art exhibition at the weekend. Ended up spending it in bed as my autoimmune condition decided to pay me a visit and I really was too ill to go. Thats another thing that didn't occur to me, I could up and go when I felt well. Now, having to pre book, I won't know if I will be well enough on the day to go. I've lost money for this ticket, but just see it as a donation to the gallery. I will just have to rebook and see if I can attend. It was the first time I was attending an event on my own after Lockdown. It really makes you wonder, what's the point. Yet I see folk who are out all the time, meals etc, days out. I'm finding it difficult.

I have felt very flat and hemmed in for quite a while even though I am a teacher so I have been going into work and socialising there. This week I took my class to Littlehampton and they had an absolute blast in the rain getting wet and Sandy. I had to virtually drag one of mine out of the water to get changed before we went back in the coach. I have a stinking cold and am waiting for a PCR test but actually feel the most normal I have since all this started.

Even though the beach was quiet, the shops were closed it was still an amazing day. So I am going to get out and bout as
much as possible. We are allowed and it helps.

My get up and go has literally left the country. Totally bleurgh day can't be arsed to do anything at all.

I have moments of feeling very low too but not solely down to lockdown; lockdown has been a blessing in disguise due to pressure off from spending money. It’s the Brexit in the mix that has made my world so small and limiting and Brexit and lockdown together have taken a lot of shine off life. But I live one day at a time, am fortunate enough to be able to go for a 5 mile walk every morning before work and I find this really helps for a positive outlook.