Anyone else still feeling flat??

[Coldwine75]

I just cant shake it off, since the pandemic and all the lockdowns, the restrictions I have no motivation to do anything still. Normally love planning days out and holidays etc but just cant be bothered, is this the effect of living life the way we all have for the past year or so? Feels like every day is the same, monotone existence.

I’m feeling quite positive atm. I’m just focusing on the fact that most of the UK have now been vaccinated, and so we’re heading in the right direction. My only slight niggle are the variants. I’m just worried that a variant might come along which is resistant to the vaccine.

Same. I miss holidays and spontaneously going out without having to pre-book. You are not alone.

Me too.
@BonnieDundee you've described it perfectly. I was feeling optimistic earlier in the year when the vaccine rollout was going so well.

Now it seems we're heading back to square one.

I can't be bothered to go out either. Don't want to eat out, bored of going on walks, can't be bothered to see friends. I just go to work and come home and that's it.

My biggest and only real worry is the kids being off school again next term and how it will affect their mental health after having relative normality this term.

I'm feeling pretty positive actually. Had a lovely few drinks with a mate in a bar this evening, got a family party in my garden at the weekend. The kids are back doing their after school activities and playdates and loving the sports and the social interaction. I've got a few nice holidays lined up (UK self catering and camping) so a few things to look forward to over the summer so I'm not having the same experience as 99% of you it seems. Not trying to gloat but just posting to consider why it feels so different to me? I am naturally optimistic and lockdown/covid has definitely not had the same effect for me as it has for some. Not sure that's it. There's certainly nothing special about my life that would make me happier.

Personally I dont think the vaccines are working as why are the cases going up?

No, but then I haven't felt 'flat' at all, just got on with life as best I can.

This is 100% me. I have no enthusiasm for anything. WFH every day, putting on weight. Cant even muster up the energy to go out for a walk. Never felt like this before the pandemic. Its really quite depressing.

@Coldwine75

Personally I dont think the vaccines are working as why are the cases going up?

1) some people still unvaccinated and lots of mixing despite restrictions 2) some will still get mild disease - this was always made clear 3) more testing

Honestly, none of this is either unexpected or difficult to understand.

Totally agree with PP I was feeling optimistic about vaccines and being able to visit family and go out but with cases rising it just feels like being back to square one (again).

@entropynow

No, but then I haven't felt 'flat' at all, just got on with life as best I can.

If only it were that simple!

I don’t quite understand what motivates people to come onto a thread about feeling depressed / low / flat to talk about how well they feel.

If there were a thread going about how happy someone was feeing I wouldn’t go on there and talk about how depressed I feel.

I know this amazes me too and is totally unhelpful

Can I just ask, who has had / and or / tested positive for COVID & felt like this ?
Thank you so much OP for posting this - I thought I was going crazy. I got COVID in April & I haven’t felt “right” since.
I am normally such a positive happy go lucky person but it’s stripped me of everything. I am so tired & lethargic ; I am so scared; and I’ve zero enthusiasm or excitement about anything . I still can’t taste , I am constantly irritable. I keep getting headaches . I just want “me” and “normal” back. It’s almost like grieving
Thanks again for posting you have left me feeling a lot less like a freak!

@WannabeNun

I feel like this generally now. Family life is difficult, house is a tiny overcrowded shit tip, I was made redundant from a job I loved and now have one I hate, kids just want to stay at home, don't want to do anything or go anywhere. All in all life sucks at the moment and I can't see it getting better any time soon.

This is almost exactly where I am (although tbf, job is OK and kids do want to go out and about). Our house was bad before the pandemic and is now beyond help. I look at it and just don't know where to start, and can't be bothered even though it is making me depressed. Yesterday I went to the office for only the third time since last March and had to go to bed at 8.30pm, I had got myself so stressed and exhausted over something I used to do every day without thinking about it.

I think the delay of Freedom Day and all the shit about the football matches and Uefa officials - the sheer unfairness of it all, and the inevitability of this just dragging on because of Government incompetence, has just got to me now. I'm done.

@Beqhet6

Can I just ask, who has had / and or / tested positive for COVID & felt like this ? Thank you so much OP for posting this - I thought I was going crazy. I got COVID in April & I haven’t felt “right” since. I am normally such a positive happy go lucky person but it’s stripped me of everything. I am so tired & lethargic ; I am so scared; and I’ve zero enthusiasm or excitement about anything . I still can’t taste , I am constantly irritable. I keep getting headaches . I just want “me” and “normal” back. It’s almost like grieving Thanks again for posting you have left me feeling a lot less like a freak!

I’m not sure if I ever had it I’m afraid. If I did I never lost my sense of taste or smell

I'm really glad to have seen this thread as this is exactly how I feel. We've got nothing booked for the summer holidays and I can't even be bothered to think about what we're going to do. We're all a bit sick of each other (on day 6 of self-isolation this week as well which doesn't help) and I just can't be arsed.
I did plan a really nice day out for DH's birthday a couple of weeks ago and it reminded me of what life used to be like, but I just can't muster the energy most of the time.

It's ds11's birthday in a couple of weeks and he's the same...he doesn't know what he wants to do, or even what he wants for a present. He usually gets really excited and has loads of ideas but I think he's feeling the same way

@HairyHocks

Yes, me too OP.

I am hating work, I used to thrive on being busy and under a bit of pressure, now I just want to potter about. I WFH and rarely go out other than a quick dash round supermarket every other week, though enjoy the garden. I've tried going out a bit more, try to get back to more like normal, but I end up desperate to get back home, I'm quite anti-social now. Family want me to socialise over the next two weekends and I'm absolutely dreading it, I don't want to go out, I don't want to have to engage in social chit chat, I just want to be left alone.

This is me 100%- I have to make myself go out of the house and feel so relieved to be home when I get back! Starting to worry that it’s becoming an issue as everyone around me just seems to be back to normal

It’s hard to get motivated and enthusiastic to do things when a) you know they’ll be a bit crap compared to pre Covid (masks, rules etc) and b) you know there’s a strong chance it’ll all get cancelled at the last minute.

I went through a real “meh” phase back in Feb/March. I was very low, didn’t see the point in anything, and had become very pessimistic about the future. It was horrible. Ended up back on antidepressants, which I haven’t needed for around 5 years or so. Just a low dose but gave me the motivation to do stuff again and I’ve become a lot more able to live in the present and worry less about what might happen in terms of future lockdowns. I’m very much a lockdown skeptic, think they do more harm than good, so I don’t want another one and for sure won’t fully obey it if there is one. My mental health is more important. I deal with other people’s mental health all day and if I’m not doing ok myself I can’t support others through this. I’ve been a key worker throughout the pandemic and I think that’s probably influenced how “at risk” I feel as well. I’ve done a bunch of stuff with my job that’s supposed to be “too dangerous” and if I can sit in a small room face to face for 50-90 mins at a time with patients and never get Covid, I can go see a mate for a coffee. I’m double vaccinated and vaccines are breaking the link between cases and deaths/hospitalizations. Patients struggling with serious long term mental health issues can’t be my only social contact, that was massively unhealthy for me and very distorting. And quite frankly, anyone who invites me to a Zoom social can get tae fuck.

It has been very liberating to say “fuck it” to a lot of this stuff and decide to just not participate in the circus. Has done wonders for my mental health to just see it as a sideshow.

For everyone feeling the same and

I think i am most certainly burned out. I work in mental health. My own mental health is certainly not as robust as it was prior to Covid.

Before your thread @Coldwine75 I had already had a long cry in my office today and decided to call the doctor tomorrow. I can’t afford it but I’m also going to take 2 weeks off next month to try and get back to family, nature and try some cold water immersion therapy.

@PineappleMojito

I went through a real “meh” phase back in Feb/March. I was very low, didn’t see the point in anything, and had become very pessimistic about the future. It was horrible. Ended up back on antidepressants, which I haven’t needed for around 5 years or so. Just a low dose but gave me the motivation to do stuff again and I’ve become a lot more able to live in the present and worry less about what might happen in terms of future lockdowns. I’m very much a lockdown skeptic, think they do more harm than good, so I don’t want another one and for sure won’t fully obey it if there is one. My mental health is more important. I deal with other people’s mental health all day and if I’m not doing ok myself I can’t support others through this. I’ve been a key worker throughout the pandemic and I think that’s probably influenced how “at risk” I feel as well. I’ve done a bunch of stuff with my job that’s supposed to be “too dangerous” and if I can sit in a small room face to face for 50-90 mins at a time with patients and never get Covid, I can go see a mate for a coffee. I’m double vaccinated and vaccines are breaking the link between cases and deaths/hospitalizations. Patients struggling with serious long term mental health issues can’t be my only social contact, that was massively unhealthy for me and very distorting. And quite frankly, anyone who invites me to a Zoom social can get tae fuck.

It has been very liberating to say “fuck it” to a lot of this stuff and decide to just not participate in the circus. Has done wonders for my mental health to just see it as a sideshow.

Sounds like we are in the same profession. For you I feel exactly the same.

Yes,feeling very flat and unmotivated. Only going out for medical appointments and quick shopping. There is no pleasure in taking a stroll round the shops anymore. Masks make me feel ill (BP goes sky high with mask/heat combination). Hardly see anyone but can't really be bothered.

Have a few other crappy things going on as well which don't help - dying cat, I need a minor op, Brexit bureaucracy and limitations to deal with (we live on the continent), haven't seen family for more than 18 months. I heave a sigh of relief when I get into bed every night.

Same here OP. But I've started swimming again, just a couple of times a week and that's helped a bit. It's really a push to motivate myself to go but once I'm there it feels ok.

Same here. I stopped playing my piano in the summer 2020, and haven't played a note since. I started a book last June... and I still can't seem to finish it! I'm glad I'm not alone, but how do I break this sluggishness??