It dawned on me as I was walking the dog and I apologised to a couple when their dog approached mine (mine on normal short lead walking by my side- theirs on extendable lead miles ahead of them) and got under her legs and we got all tangled as my dog panics when things go round her legs (rescue- suspect she was maybe tied up at some point). And it just hit me that I do this all the time. I apologise for my very existence and feel like I’m faking being a mother, dog owner, friend, good at my job, and that people can tell I’m actually crap at it all and if they can’t tell, they soon will. It’s holding me back. I have no self belief. There are so many things I would love to do but I have that voice cloud that tells me “don’t be silly, you can’t do that” it exists throughout my life. How do I stop it? I need to get it to fuck off and start actually living. There is no budget for counselling but I reckon I need some mind work. Are there online resources that can sort me out? Help me.