To never want to drive

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I'm 26 with 2 kids and cant drive.
I have taken a test 4 times and failed. The last time I had a massive panic attack and had to stop. I was diagnosed with anxiety after having my first daughter but I have have been an anxious person my whole life.

Each reason why I failed is such a long story. Basically the first 3 I only had about 3-4 minors and 1 major. Every time it's just more and more money. I stopped after I had my first daughter, then tried again just before lockdown when I failed again. Then had my daughter in October 2020 and haven't even thought about it since.

It definitely impacts my life I would love more freedom. The thought of it fills me with literal dread to the point of feeling sick. We now have some money I could use to go towards it. I just cringe at wasting it and failing again. Everyone around me says theres no pressure but they are the ones that keep mentioning it.

I'm getting worked up writing this. I know I'm being stupid! I cant shake this feeling of dread. I hate the thought of driving on my own. I'm dyslexic and dyspraxic and I feel like I will mess up and get in a accident. My mind wonders constantly. I dont think I can concentrate well.

I know it's a life skill I need. But I've left it too long and now I have such an issue around it. I dont WANT to do it but I know I NEED too.

I passed on my 8th test in an automatic, that was 15 years ago.Never been in a situation where I've needed to drive a Manual. Car hire abroad is more expensive for an automatic though.

Go for automatic. Much less coordination and timing involved. More cars are going automatic anyway and an automatic only licence is not as restrictive as it used to be.

I used to get horribly nervous before tests and exams to the point of being sick but I found hypnotherapy really helped. It took me 5 attempts to pass my driving test but I got there in the end!