NC for this.
I have realised recently that I absolutely detest her. She makes my blood boil.
I had a shit childhood, emotionally abusive mum constantly commenting about my weight, acne etc resulting in an ED which has left me suffering with osteoarthritis age 22. My father hit me so hard I wet myself when I was younger, and I wanted to go to the police and made those intentions clear which I was guilt tripped into keeping quiet. So I did.
I met a man in 2018 who abused me financially and physically, he took loans out in my name and car finance which left me in the shit. My mum volunteered to help me out once and lent me £300 which I paid back within a month. She lent me the money to clear a debt he’d taken out in my name last year which I’m paying back monthly. Throughout my DV she has never asked how I am or anything.
I had a blacked eye over the summer and received text messages telling me how “good my makeup was” and that I’d drew it on.
She is a grade A shit stirrer and only sees herself as the victim of my DV. She’s not arsed about me in the slightest, she’s contacted all my family to inform them how “evil” I am, and I’m unsure why.
She calls me names and constantly tries to goad me and start some form of argument and I hate it so much. I’ve had to move back home with her after I fled in 2019 which isn’t ideal but college really helps. Every single day results in shouting and screaming. She tells me I’ve let him abuse me, she wants to sit and speak to him to get his side of the story and that my nana hates him but only because of the money my mums borrowed me not for the beating.
I fucking hate this woman with every fibre of my being and I don’t know if I’m allowed to think bad things about her cos she helped me out.