Returning back to work after 6 years ..aibu?

[cherylprel]

I'm 35 and haven't had a job since later 2014.
Basically I had a breakdown
My mum died and I couldn't cope.
We were best friends and I developed anxiety and depression.
I didn't leave the house for a year as I was terrified incase I passed out.
I had many physical problems (caused by anxiety ) and I didn't see a way out.
I was living off £110 a week and I had no life.
Anyway fast forward 6 years I'm better than I was,I can go out etc etc
I still have negative thoughts (you can't do this,not good enough ) but I can shake them off.
I signed off ESA on Friday and it was such a scary thing as it felt final.
I start my full time job tomorrow.
It's a 25 min bus from home (which isn't bad)37 hours per week.
It's gonna mean each month after bills /rent /food I will have about £700 spare a month (which I've never had) so will be able to afford to do nice things.
Anyway ..I did the right thing?
My friends kept saying "are you deffo ready" but if not now I'll never be.
Aibu to feel like this?
I'm gonna be ok aren't I ?

Of course you can and should do this. £700 after bills etc is a lot of disposable income, more than many people. You need to start building up a pension etc.

Well done on getting the job and coming so far. You'll be fine 🙂

You’re going to be better than ok - you’re going to SMASH it! Well done to you. Take it one step at a time x

Of course you will be. Don’t understand the tiredness everyone feels when they start a new job, have plenty of early nights and quick an easy healthy food.

Working will give you a new focus.
Well done on getting to this point. You should be proud!

You will be fine! It's natural to be anxious and even have doubts, but you will settle quickly and it will give you a new directing in life. God luck and enjoy it!

Not only are you going to be ok, you’re going to be amazing. You’re fantastic - well done

Well done. You can do this 💐💐 Well done on.the new job.

Your life can begin again. This is a really good step. Well done

Well done. Do it. You will feel amazing getting that wage packet not to mention the new burst of life you'll get. Think about how you can treat yourself at the end of the month.

Well done. You will be fine

Thankyou everyone
I'm planning (when things re open ) a nice spa day with my friend and hopefully end of the year a weekend away Christmas shopping.
I can drive so hopefully save for a car again (when I wasn't working I couldn't afford to run a car )

Take it easy on yourself and ramp up slowly. Have food prep done so you eat well and get to bed earlier than normal to ensure you are firing in all cylinders in work.

This will be the start of a new chapter in your life and you get to write the next chapter too.
Good luck...you can do this!

That’s great OP- I took a 6 month sabbatical after my dad died as I was crying on the train every day- it’s good though to get back to every day life, to be more social and feel more whole. Congrats and best of luck

I have had terrible anxiety abs actually it’s very good to be busy! I found I actually worried a lot less because my mind was being used for something productive.
You’ll be fine! Also, anxious employees often make the best ones as they’re very diligent! I always got praised for my thoroughness

Well done! Don't be discouraged if you find the first few weeks a bit overwhelming. It will get better. Decide on a nice way to treat yourself when you get your first pay packet!

After six years a lot of people would have given up trying, but you've pulled yourself through. You can do this!

Bet your mum would be really proud and she would want this for you. You can do this.

Well done OP! Sorry you had such a hard time I'm glad your feeling much better and I'm sure having this job and financial security will only add to that.

You're going to do great

Its much better being up and out of the house if you have anxiety. There is no time to ruminate on things, your head will be full of work. The money will be fantastic and you'll have adult interaction. I wouldn't tell people the ins and outs of you not being in work. Come up with some kind of story. Good luck, you're absolutely doing the right thing!

Well done for getting back at it. Just a warning - you are going to be physically exhausted. Dog tired. That’s normal. It will last some months. Don’t worry about it - just have lots of early nights and eat well. All the best of luck

Wow well done!

An extra £700 .... Fantastic. Love how you've goals for the extra money too. Once you get back on the road with a wee car you'll be so so proud of yourself.

I had similar issues after a bereavement. Just could no longer function at work or cope with people. Took a career break and became a hermit until my wounds gradually healed. Took much longer than I thought! You've gave me hope & inspiration x

Yes absolutely doing the right thing. Well done for getting a job, that must have been scary but you can definitely do this. £700 a month spare will be great, save some and also make sure you get yourself some treats too.

I told them when I applied I took time out to travel (and they never asked anymore questions.
Going to bed at 10 tonight so I can be up for 6am
Start at 8 and finish at 4 so will be home by 5.
Gonna prepare lunch ,outfit,handbag tonight so I'm all set.
Mixture of excited/ nervous

Ah well done you! Hope your first day goes well and you enjoy your new job.