Returning back to work after 6 years ..aibu?

[cherylprel]

I'm 35 and haven't had a job since later 2014.
Basically I had a breakdown
My mum died and I couldn't cope.
We were best friends and I developed anxiety and depression.
I didn't leave the house for a year as I was terrified incase I passed out.
I had many physical problems (caused by anxiety ) and I didn't see a way out.
I was living off £110 a week and I had no life.
Anyway fast forward 6 years I'm better than I was,I can go out etc etc
I still have negative thoughts (you can't do this,not good enough ) but I can shake them off.
I signed off ESA on Friday and it was such a scary thing as it felt final.
I start my full time job tomorrow.
It's a 25 min bus from home (which isn't bad)37 hours per week.
It's gonna mean each month after bills /rent /food I will have about £700 spare a month (which I've never had) so will be able to afford to do nice things.
Anyway ..I did the right thing?
My friends kept saying "are you deffo ready" but if not now I'll never be.
Aibu to feel like this?
I'm gonna be ok aren't I ?

Well done on the new job!
This sounds like a great opportunity for you and will give you a new focus for the future.

I’m just about to start a new full time job after 9 years of working very part time. I think it will be a bit of a shock to the system, but I can’t wait to get going.

All the best for your first day,

Good luck OP!
It will be a bit scary and knackering and I'm sure you will have days where you wonder if you've done the right thing...then suddenly one day you will help someone else with something and realise you are not the new girl any more and you are enjoying it!

You're really brave. I had 6 months off ill and returned to the same job and felt really stressed about it!

Ah thanks everyone you've all been so lovely to me.
I really appreciate that.
I expect some 9pm bedtimes next week ha ha
I can't wait to get my first pay and think I've earned that.
This was the first job I applied for too,I never thought I would get it.

Well done. Good luck

This is an amazing achievement! Wishing you all the best with your new job.

Well done OP 🎉. You will be fine, give yourself plenty of relaxation time after work, do something nice for yourself. My brother was suffering from anxiety and depression for 10 years. Last year I helped apply for a post which was quite technical, he couldn't see how this post was made for him. He kept saying he wasn't good enough. At the interview he was honest about his lack of work and his mental health. They loved his honesty and enthusiasm to better himself and he got the job.
He is starting a degree in September all funded by his company as they can see his potential. He is a completely different person, for the better. He is so confident and outgoing and better than that he believes in his ability to do anything you want.
You will thrive in your new role and will become more confident. Your employer saw potential in you and you need to see that too x

Congratulations on the job OP!

You definitely did the right thing. It will be hard going back into full time work, but I think you’ve done the hardest part of getting to the place where you can shake off negative thoughts, look for work and actually get a good job!

Update us on how you get on

You've got this. You are a strong person. Well done.

Amazing stuff!! I don't know you but I feel very proud of you.
You've got this😊

How did it go?