To wonder why i'm not succesful at work?

[malificent7]

I grew up with a strong work ethic, worked really hard at GCSEs and Alevels. Parents wanted me to be a doctor but i wanted to find my own path.
I was bullied really badly at school and after Alevels / start of degree my mh really started to decline. Ended up in hospital etc.
Despite this , i retrained as a teacher but I had a really hard time with people/ politics in placement and on my first job when I got pregnant which escalated into massive drama as usual due to mh.

I soldiered on in teaching after dd was born but ultimately the stress got to me.
I am now retraining in NHS and i love the course but on placements ive had a really hard time with people.
It's like my face never seems to fit, i get very anxious around people and i get bullied a lot. I did have one teaching job where i fitted very well and staff liked me but they couldn't guarentee the contract so i had to move on. Plus the kids were horrid to me.

If you were asked at interview what qualities and skills you could bring to the role you want OP how might you answer?

I dont think its your fault OP , some jobs I have really clicked with colleagues but in other jobs I just haven't.
Same in other situations like mums at toddler groups etc.
My daughter is on the waiting list for autistic spectrum disorder,we have boys diagnosed with autism in wider family . Reading about autism.in girls has been an eye opener and a lot of what you have written would ring true for a woman with autism.
Maybe look for another placement, all because one doesnt work.out doesn't mean they all wont.
Some people just glide through life , get noticed and promoted. Often I think its as much about right place right time and your face fitting as it is as about being really good at your job, don't be so hard on yourself!
Concentrate on doing your work to the best of your abilities, dont be afaid to ask if you are unsure about something and respect others views.
Smile, say good morning, make some all talk about weekend plans, what youve watched on tv etc but ultimately if you arent happy there look for something else and remember lots of people dont get promoted and stay at same level job for years, good luck

OP as others have said that’s two incredibly stressful job environments you’ve chosen there, given your situation I question if they’re a good match for you. They’re also both public sector so generally much lower paid than private sector. I’m puzzled by your career choices and wonder if you were led by the views of others close to you. So the short answer to your question is “because you have chosen jobs that aren’t a good fit for your skills and personality.”

• Perhaps something in civil service, or local government, where your previous experience will be appreciated but hopefully less pressure and good hours?

• if you have very strong academics but struggle with people (and can afford it) accountancy or law might be a better choice. Something where a lot of the work is on email not meetings.

• if those aren’t appropriate then maybe seek mid level management in one of the many big employer private companies: thinking amazon, supermarkets, john lewis; garden centres etc.

• if you have teacher experience then round here we’re all paying ££££ for private tutors and that’ll continue for years as children play catchup. Just a thought.