I was diagnosed with Dyspraxia, which affects my coordination and motor planning (things like balance, using kitchen/science/ DIY equipment and my handwriting speed), along with my hand eye coordination (ball games etc( when I was four (I'm now 36).
I already know that some of the signs of Dyspraxia are similar to Autism, but a few people (including Mum) have mentioned that I could be On the autistic spectrum as well. What do you think?
I can get obsessive over things (mum said that I was obsessed with holders and fire extinguishers as a toddler/ young child), and I'm currently quite obsessed (as I'm I watch it every day when the put a new video up) about a certain YouTube channel about a Friesian horse breeding farm.
Whilst I don't completely lose the plot over change, I often 'bury my head in the sand' over big changes in my life that I'm not sure about and hide my feelings/ don't talk about my feelings about the change ( for example when Grandad was dying of cancer/ and the riding stables where I worked closing down). However, sudden day to day changes in routine don't bother me, and I enjoy trying new activities etc. I also got quite upset when some of my favourite riding school horses and ponies got sold/ loaned out and ended up crying.
I do over think things a lot and worry about people talking about me behind my back. If someone is in a bad mood, I often think that it's me that they are cross about. When I was younger, I was often worried about strange noises in the night (especially when I slept over at my Grandparents house, when I was worried that the strange noises meant that they were ill, yet I was also too worried to get out of bed to check). When I was travelling, I also worried about strange noises on the ferry, train or plane. The noises, especially on the overnight ferry, used to keep me awake worrying that there was something wrong/ an emergency that we didn't know about.
I do have quite a high pain threshold, and often just try and carry on as normal if I don't feel well and don't tell anyone - especially if it would mean that I missed out on something that I want to do - i.e horse riding, a cinema trip.
I have lost my temper in the past when I'm stressed out, or feel like someone's cross with me over things like apparently not putting enough straw in their horses stable/ not feeding them enough hay when I KNOW that I'd given the right amount.
I do enjoy social interaction, and had close friends throughout my school life (less so at college and as an adult), but I'm also an introvert, and will happily spend all day curled up with a good book, chocolate and a purry cat. I'm fact, even as a child I preferred to read, rather than play with toys, although this could be due to my Dyspraxia and the fiddly nature of a lot of popular toys. Reading has always been much easier than anything involving coordination.
Sorry for the essay 😣😣!