I am unreasonable. I've hit the pandemic wall today.

[outofthemoon]

Today it feels endless. 3 members of my family are self isolating alone in different cities. They are miserable. I keep telling them soon it will be a different world but I don't believe it really.

Tell me to grow up or stop the self pity or something please.

@outofthemoon

It's bearing it for other people that's so hard. I've been 7 hours on the phone today to fragile people I can't help. I had to stop work. It's endless. And I know they'll ring me through the night, and I rather they did than feel desolate, but I've run out of things to say.

Bloody hell...That is exhausting for you.

Talking on the phone for SEVEN HOURS {Unless it's Work} is relentless.

Why on earth are they ringing you through the night? Talking on the phone , especially if there is nothing positive to say is exhausting.
Being available on the phone day AND night is not good for you.

If a Work related thing, haven't they other people who can share night phoning with?
It's a shame there isn't an online place where they can vent instead.

Talking/listening for that length of time is wearying.

@ForTheLoveOfCatFood

It’s ok to not be ok - frankly I think making it to December 2020 is an achievement in itself

This. So much this.

If it is your family members phoning you to moan, could they not just phone each other?
Through the night is not really fair, unless a very serious emergency.

Sadly there are people who will take advantage and bend your ear for as long as you let them.

Oh love... Ten years ago I hit an absolute wall and said to now exP 'I just need to say this. I have to be able to say this. Please just listen, and don't tell me it's going to be ok, because I can't see how it is ever going to be ok
His reply: It'll be ok

MN is a nest of vipers at times, but my god, we are here when you need us. And we'll stroke your hair, and make soothing noises, and you can vent like a bag of microwave veg steaming. It's not ok. It might not ever be ok. But it's ok to say how you feel - because I think so many of us understand.

I just try and look at the silver linings. I mostly feel so sad for my mum who is basically stuck in her house for now due to her vulnerabilities. She usually relies on me to take her out but being a teacher, I can't take the chance so I meet distance from outside but its been cold and wet. Its shit. At 86 she can't even hug my youngest.
I have the constant worry in my work I will catch it and that my children will but I am grateful I'm paid and financially nothing has changed. I don't socialise that much so not much has changed in that respect either.
Hang on in there :)

Hope you got some sleep last night OP.

I had a small boy in with me who was desperately sad at bedtime because everything and he and I had a good sob together for totally different reasons but caused by the same stuff. Then the cat came and joined in and we all got done sleep but now I'm awake staring into the darkness and stressing.

I think I underestimated how emotionally tough this Christmas would be. Last year was the first one since my ex fucked off and I assumed that would be the difficult one but I think I was still kind of in shock and I had just started full time work after years as a SAHM so I was frantically busy and didn't have time to really absorb.

This year I just feel so weird about all the Christmas traditions. I'm not going to blather on any more. This is your thread. I just wanted to say that this is a very odd Christmas with a lot of emotions swooshing around and EVERYONE is feeling it.

Seven hours! Oh my, no wonder you're wrung out.

I've had enough too, I live alone, mum and dad 300 miles away had surgery recently and I could not be there. Cat is dying, I've had her for 20 years and she is a darling.
I want to spend her last days with her but my NHS colleagues are nearly all off with covid so I've gone from doing 8 hours a day to 12 hours every day all week really acute stuff and i'm wiped out.
I think I'm too old for this, near retirement, my house is a tip because I'm too tired to tidy up when I get home.
I just cannot go on like this for many more months.

With the more general hitting a wall,, I'm seeing a lot of people now reaching a stage I recognise.

A while after I became disabled, there came a point when I thought, "Bored Now."

"I've done this now. I've given up everything I dreamed of, I've made the adaptations, I'm good every day about what I do and don't do, I've ticked "being disabled" off my To Do list. So can I have my medal and go home to my real life now, please?"

And then I'd wake up the next day and, nope, still disabled.

If you don't have anything to say how about just watching TV together while you're on the phone. Just a bit of normality but with company of sorts, and takes the pressure off xxx

Oh and now loads more messages have loaded and I can see it's already been suggested. Sorry :)

Heya @outofthemoon hope today was a better day xxx All The Vipers!