My 12th birthday

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This was in the 90s. I remember it like yesterday. It was my 12th birthday. We didn't have much money for luxuries. I received two presents from my parents. A world atlas in book form i needed for school and a pyjama. I remember crying and feeling deflated that my own parents could not think of a little something to make it nice, a surprise, just something done with love.

It was a school day and I was dreading the question 'so, what did you get for your birthday?'. I had an awful day. That birthday stuck with me forever, although birthdays were always a small affair in our family.

AIBU now and then for feeling like this?

YANBU.

I can relate to you OP. I may as well repeat everything you've said. My siblings seem to get almost more now than I have ever had or still get. My DS birthday is coming up and she's already asked for what she wants (£100 worth) and DM still says oh I wanted to buy you something more.

I remember not having much a childhood tbh. Someone on here responded correctly.. there's a bigger picture behind these small things. The more I think about it all, the more I realise 'my place' in the family and how i am taken for granted. I'm learning to step back now and focus on me.

@ghostmous3

I hope my kids dont look back at the fact I was always skint on thier birthdays and couldnt afford much, certainly couldnt afford parties and keepsake jewellery.

I made thier cakes and did a homemade tea..must have been a shit birthday for them then

Just the opposite ghostmous3. As Anotherlovelybitofsquirrel says, they will remember the love.