Please be kind. I’ve had my doubts for a few years. Spoken to him and he denies and laughs. He’s never interested in me sexually and over the years I realise it’s always me instigating it. Now that we have reached number of children we planned it seems like in his eyes his job is done and there’s no need to ever have sex again. I have cried and I have tried to find out what he thinks and feels but he closes off and promises he will change but nothing changes. In marriage councelling and he just cries and makes councellor feel sorry for him so I look like the evil wife whose pressuring him for intimacy. I feel really depressed as I feel I’ve wasted my youth on him. I don’t know where to turn.
He doesn’t ever share how he feels and just cries. I just want to know where I stand. I feel I’m an open book and tell him exactly how I feel but he’s very secretive and closed off. I can’t live like this.