TW: miscarriage, sex, infertility, TTC.
Since miscarrying 7 years ago, I had no periods for two years and since they returned, my periods have been every 3 to 5 months. My husband and I have struggled with conception due to this, and it looks as though I may not be ovulating properly. Owing to COVID, our fertility assistance appointments have been cancelled and we're now at month 21 of really trying. My last period ended 29 days ago.
I've been feeling utterly miserable and crappy for weeks. Sweaty, bad skin, been sick a few times, BP has dropped, constant dizziness.. a whole bundle of things. Today is the first time in so long that I've felt good.. like REAL good. My husband is at work, I'm on annual leave. I took a bath this afternoon, had a small glass of gin, did my hair and makeup, got all dressed up, did some shopping and have planned a really romantic night where I'll cook and you know.. we can baby dance.
Guess who just arrived on Day 28 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OVER 7 YEARS?
Aunt Flo.
I'm so angry. Seriously. Eff nature.
Sorry. I just needed to really rant.