Do I need professional help?

[Lissy23]

I’m in a very dark and sad place at the moment, I’m very unhappy and I hate my life.
I’m worried because I have watched the same film 5 nights in a row now and I’ve just started it again for the 6th night.
It’s an obsession and I can’t stop doing it. What if I can’t stop?

Why do you hate your life?

And what film is it that you’re watching and why do you feel compelled to watch it? Does it make you happy? Hopeful? Or does it remind you of your own life?

@QueenofmyPrinces it’s actually Sense and Sensibility, the Emma Thompson/Kate Winslet version.
I watched it when growing up, when I was off sick from school with my mum. And it’s also so beautiful and romantic.
I have PND, but I’m also unhappy in my current relationship. I feel trapped and I live 200 miles away from my family and close friends. I regret moving here 5 years ago and wish I’d stayed where I was.
It’s that really.
Oh and my area is on local lockdown still, so we can’t see anyone inside their homes or gardens. So I feel very deflated about it all.