I just cannot cope anymore with the whinging and whining. It's been constant all day apart from when I gave in and let him watch bloody blippi for half an hour.
I just lost it when I put his lunch in front of him. The lunch he wanted, that I had checked twice before making and he made that. Bloody.awful.noise.Again.
I shouted, really really shouted and put his lunch in the bin. I completely disagree with smacking but my god I could have slapped him which frightens me.
DH is working upstairs, came down when he heard me shouting and has taken him up with him.
I just feel like the walls are closing in and m like a coiled spring of anger. I'm worried I'm psychologically damaging my children. DD is 5 and back at school today. I feel like I'm not fit to have children. I started out lockdown with a homeschooling plan, ctivities every day but it's all gone to shit.
DH is great and gives me breaks when he can. He is worried about me I think. I feel anxious and down every afternoon. It's not like me. I actually do a job dealing with very angry, irrational people and I'm known for my calmness