To ask what you've learnt about yourself during lockdown?

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I used to always wish I had the time to garden, it looked so fun and relaxing. Now I have the time to garden I bloody loathe it, it's too hot and never ending. Will happily give that job back to DP

I think I"ve learnt that I'm happier opting out of a social life. Before, I was vaguely aware that I was keener to see my friends than they were to see me, or, if that wasn't exactly true, they were all married so the 8 weeks between meeting up one group of friends, or the 10 weeks between meeting up with another group of friends always felt like longer to me. I initiated the next meet up, regardless of which group it was.

Now obviously nobody's meeting anybody and I've withdrawn in to myself fairly happily. Work home work home work home. Makes me realise that I would be better off selling my tiny shabby house in the city and moving to a new big house somewhere cheaper and just enjoying the space and the luxury.

@Watchagotcha I'm finding gretchen rubin very easy listening right now. She's a good speaker, and ''Better than Before'' on audible is a good listen about habits. I have listened to a few of her books now. Outer Order inner calm is I HOPE going to motivate me to tidy up my whole house and by extension life.

That I want to retire.

Ditto @poloneckknickers. I used to worry about getting depressed if I didn’t have the structure and purpose of going out to work. Now I know I love it!

That the sun has more of an impact on my mental health than I realised. The good weather has made my lockdown not hard in the slightest.

That some people are selfless and supportive and some are cruel, thoughtless and unpleasant.
That I need social interaction.
That my mental health is far more fragile than I hoped
That I can worry about anything
That many people think that people like me should sacrifice themselves and that we make no contribution.

DD does actually like school. Didn't think she'd miss it so much.

That I have an eating disorder that I can't talk to Dh about.

I really really dislike the place I work, not the job, just the place and how anxious work makes me.

How much easier it is caring for someone who is disabled and not juggling going to work ( working from home makes it so much easier)

That I’m incredibly independent and not social at all.

I'm even more introverted than I thought, and I love my own company.
I'm pretty good at cooking, now I have time.
I can worry for Britain, but I knew that before.
I'm content at home.

...that drinking an entire bottle of Baileys
will definitely give me a hangover.

OK, so yeah, I already learned that a long
time ago -- but lockdown has reconfirmed it. 😓

@EmeraldShamrock just reading back from my yesterday's input on this thread and caught what you said. Even though I do not know you I just wanted to send you a virtual hug. This virus is so cruel and I really feel for you. ❤️

That Im really happy in my own company.
That I'll never tidy the house
That I'm not a bad cook.
That dh needs to shape up or ship out.

@sawollya

I have already read better than before, and I agree it’s a great book! My problem is that I am 99% Obliger with just a smidge if Rebel. If a habit of mine benefits others (keeping a tidy house, regular voluntary work, keeping up with friends who are struggling and need support, helping my children with schoolwork, getting them to weekly activities etc - I can totally do it, it’s easy for me. Even shopping / eating / cooking healthily I can do, because it benefits us all.

But prioritise solo exercise, which only benefits me? Over things that I need to do for other people? Can’t do it, can’t see the point (despite obviously knowing all the benefits of regular exercise). I can’t work out how what to put in place that would trigger my Obliger self to value it and get enough reward from doing it, to make it a habit.

Sorry for the derail: as you were everyone else ;-)

@EmeraldShamrock
Sincere condolences on your loss.
I see your posts on different threads and had not realised that your DM had died.
With a name like that you must have Irish connections.

That I despise most people.

@Sawollya
I love your username. Very apt in the lockdown.

That I'm more sociable than I thought.. I miss seeing other people and it's made me miss people I haven't seen in years. I am also still very introverted and love my own space though!
That my kids are resilient.. they haven't once asked to go anywhere. They are 3 and 6.
That I took normal life for granted.

That I have NOT got over a youth filled with ill health, restrictions and isolation nearly as much as I thought I had. I am fortunate to be able to work from home, and to live near shops that deliver to locals. I am less fortunate (or less tough) about the PTSD-type flashbacks. These 'unprecedented' times are less unprecedented for some than for others. Oh, and I've also learned that I love modern technology even more than I thought I did.

That I'm pretty independent and dont miss going out as much as I thought i would. I've enjoyed the simplicity of lockdown and will miss our family unit when they go back to uni.
Ive enjoyed the time to garden
My neighbours are lovely
I've enjoyed the challenge of setting up live calls, book club meets, quizzes with friends ive wanted to catch up with, and have left the ones who have not got in touch in 10 weeks despite knowing how unwell DH is.
That although i can work from home I'm better focussed in the office (although it is easier to care for disabled DH whilst at home).
That i dislike online choir so have found a different hobby to get into until we can get back together

And i love the 2m rule as it means i dont have to hug or kiss anyone except DC and DH

I really don't like people very much (while I really like, and in some cases love, specific persons). I have become a misanthrope.

Nothing much other than I really am as lazy as I suspected!

And I eat too much

I didn’t realise how tactile I am.
Also that I’m good at saving money.