Really struggling mentally with it all

[Brahx]

I have bpd. I feel like Iv taken a huge step back in my progress.

I can’t deal with the change. I can’t deal with 3 Dc who have done nothing but whine and argue. I can’t deal with the mess.

I feel moody every single day. From the second I wake up.

I’m a horrible wife and a horrible mum. All I feel like Iv done is shout to stop arguing/being rude.

😩😩😩😩😩😩

I don’t know what to do.

@Brahx do you have a partner around or is it just you?

I have no knowledge or worthy advice regarding bpd but you are not unreasonable to feel like this and I'm sure you aren't a horrible mum or wife. Hopefully someone with experience that will be useful to you will be along soon.

I have a Dh but he works long shifts

How old are your DC? Would it be possible to tell them that you are struggling and come up with little ways in which they Col help - as a starting point?

Take a deep breath. This is a challenging situation it is the worst you'll experience and you've got this far.
The DC do my head in too the constant squabbles, calling me, incapable of sorting out their own shit. 😀
Do you have headphones and a back garden I've mentally cut off from it all for a bit. Try to take 5 minutes take big deep breaths. You'd be surprised how much 5 minutes can help lift stress, give yourself a pat on the back. make sure DC are safe wear headphones during your 5
Hopefully it won't be much longer, you're nearly there.

Btw you're a stressed wife and DM not a horrible one. ❤

You're not alone in feeling like this X

Thank you all.