I'm so tired of being a 'thick' at work. In a new job nearly 4 months now, but my colleague is getting a bit impatient with me. I'm trying my best but the new system I have to learn is so confusing, with jargon, and I don't understand it. She keeps saying 'don't you remember' and I kinda do, but I don't IUKWIM. Am thinking I need to start studying in the evenings or something I don't know what to do. I'm keeping a journal, writing everything down, studying the manual, but I think it's like until you've actually done the tasks a few times even if you read about them, or someone shows you, you don't 'get it' until you remember how to do it yourself. She's a lot younger than me and been here 8 years so is very very fast and knowledgable. I feel like such a dumbo.