@DifficultPifcultLemonDifficult Sending all the support to you and your child.
I can’t imagine the sort of pressure you must feel under to agree to this treatment. I had depression and self harmed as a teenager and I know what effect it had on my mother.
I can only tell you that I believe you’ve prevented a great deal of future pain for your child.
I spent several years with constant suicidal thoughts after my time on a GnRHa. I lost my career, I was housebound, my personality was different, I could barely stand most days, my marriage was severely damaged, I couldn’t stand to be touched let alone have sex, and much of that is still true more than a decade down the line. I wish with everything I have that I could go back and refuse that stuff. It has ruined my life and the longterm effects, like loss of bone density, breast tissue and hair will always be a problem, increasingly so as I age. I absolutely dread menopause.
Your child can still transition or desist if they choose but they don’t have to spend their life with debilitating pain, fatigue and other issues, and with no support from HCPs to try and fix it.
I wish support were better, and I hope things get better for you both. If you or your child ever want to talk about my experience, if you think it would help them understand why you’re refusing, I’m more than happy to help.