Cancer is such a massive twattish piece of shit. Fuck off.

[MustardScreams]

I am 30. When I was 20 I thought it was old. Now I’m 30 I feel like a child still.

I have breast cancer. Now what fucking genius thought that was ok? I have a 2 year old and am a single mum. What the actual FUCK!

I’m in the midst of treatment (had a lumpectomy 3 weeks ago and about to start rads) and even though it could be worse (why do people keep telling me this) I’m having a completely shit evening.

I just fucking hate it. I hate it and I wanted to whinge loudly but not to my friends and family because they’re extremely positive at all times! You’ll be fine! Can’t talk about being scared! Gotta get through it!

It’s an absolute bastard and it doesn’t care who gets it babies, toddlers, children, teenagers, new mums. It’s such a fucking arsehole. And the treatments are horrific too.

I’m so sorry to anyone going through this right now, please rant away

@Trumpton I welled up at your friend’s card. That is what everyone suffering from the horror disease needs. Really lovely.

But the rest of it is horrific. Fuck cancer.

This time last year I had cancer. It totally sucks. I wasn't of the 'I can beat this' mentality, I just took it one day at a time. Cancer was much more powerful than me, it was never a fair fight.

I too found Maggie's centre to be an absolute haven of non-judgemental support completely on my own terms. I still pop in sometimes when I'm driving past.

I wish you all the best.

So sorry to hear that

It really is shit.

Has your Breast Cancer Care Nurse recommended any forums? You could have a look at the following:

community.breastcancer.org
and
community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_types/breast-cancer/discussions

You'll get great support, tips and advice on these community forums where others will understand exactly what you are going through.

My husband has thyroid cancer. Thyroid cancer, the one everyone tells you is the ‘best kind of cancer’ to get because it’s so treatable.
Well it’s spread, in less than 4 months he’s become completely riddled with it and has had a terminal diagnosis. We have a 5 yr old who adores his daddy and already struggles to understand why Dad can’t get on the floor to play anymore. Cancer is going to break his little heart and I can’t do a damn thing to stop it. I fucking hate cancer.

I don't know what to say. I wish you all the best.

So sorry OP. How utterly shitty for you, and everyone else on this thread. Far too young to have to put up with such a cunting disease.

It is shit, very fucking shit. I hate all the fighting talk and positive crap, it's bullshit and unless you are dealing with it fuck off with meaningless words.

My amazing wonderful dh (38) has stage 4 bowel cancer with no treatment options left, he never had a chance to "fight" it was found at stage 4. The well meaning drs all say he is too young fit and healthy, well obviously fucking not . Most of our friends and family refuse to talk anything but positive shit and can't/won't even contemplate having a discussion about what me and our three children are going to do without him, what's the point, none of it is positive. Thankfully my dm has been a rock and lets me rant, scream, shout and swear at the unjustness of it all.

So, be mad very fucking mad, break something (I took a bat to our fire pit when the children were at school, it was very therapeutic!), don't put a brave face on let people know how you are feeling. Do what you feel is right for you and your lo. Dh has got lots of t-shirts with funny stuff on, including one that says I'm not dead yet! His mother rang me horrified that it had really upset her, we have finally realised that we can't control others feelings and emotions and refuse to let them change how we deal with it as a family.Don't push yourself too hard, rest if and when you can, you won't be able to please everyone so remember to please yourself.

I hope you have lots of love and support. Thinking of you both 

@CherryPavlova thank you for describing rads as boring. I need this. Boring rads, chemo is pants but just a year of feeling shite and then health.
When I had radiotherapy in 2008 after my WLE I thought it would be awful after they told me of the side effects. I had no burnt breasts, no side effects whatsoever (unless you count lack of underarm hair growth for a couple of years - yay).

It was definitely boring. There was really nothing to it. I had 17 days of rads (15 at one strength and then 2 days in another room having a bigger boost) but the treatment only lasted about 90 seconds. It takes longer to set you up in position than the treatment. I didn't feel anything.

Rads can be awful depending on what type of cancer you have. I distinctly remember the BC patients looked the picture of health compared to those with other cancers. I felt like such a fraud as I felt so well.

It still feels a bit surreal when I think about it. I feel like a fraud, as if I'm lying if I ever tell anyone I had BC. I don't know why.

OP, in a few weeks time it will all be over and you'll just have check-ups and life will go on as normal.

It's fucking shite. My DMIL started radiotherapy on Thursday and is a mess about having to go to the city to stay for her treatment.

She seen young lassies there, that had major surgery and was just blown away but how breast cancer (and all cancers) doesn't give a rats arse about your age, gender, anything. It does not discriminate.

You kick its fucking arse for yourself, your kid(s) sorry haven't RTFT.

We've all got your back.

I still wince at the expression 'You've got this' which a few people told me. How the fuck do you know? The whole problem is that I might fucking not.

I was in my 30s eight years ago when I was diagnosed with breast cancer OP. Not only did I make it through chemo, surgery (x2) and radiation, 5 years later I went on to get pregnant and have a child.

Don't let people tell you how to think or feel. Cancer sucks. It is terrifying and difficult. Don't bottle it up.

I'm so sorry op. That's really fucking shit.

It's ok to say to your family "do you know what? I want to just complain about it, I have cancer, I think I'm allowed".

MustardScreams that is utterly shit. Such bastarding bad luck. I thing raging is the most appropriate response, don't you? Why ever not? That fucker is just the worst, nastiest, greedy bastard there is. Fuck You. Cancer.

and a hug, if you would accept it.

I just remembered - buy or make a padded/ sheepskin seatbelt cover so if you do get ‘sunburn’ driving remains comfortable.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer 7 years ago had lumpectomy and chemo and rads.yes it's awful but doable you will get through it my DDs were 11, 9 and 7. It was a horrible time and changed me as a person it's still always in the back of my mind probably always will be. Take one day at a time you will get through this it's hard but you will. Take care xx