OK so Xmas Day 2009 snow was on the ground and I spent it all on my own . I don't attend church so no obviously religious. However, after a very lonely few years I ventured out on Xmas Day 2009 and I just felt an overwhelming feeling of ' hope. ' Indeed in March 2010 something excellent happened to me. Do it really is an experience I'd like to experience again. In the build up to Xmas 2009 I really felt something good was going to happen but I couldn't put my finger on what it was ..... and this day seemed magical. Same walk exactly on Boxing Day 2009 did NOT generate same feeling